Hmm, maybe I should write a Blueseed fic too, then I'll have done one for
all of the series I'm planning to use in my megacrossover.
This one's a little different. It takes a slightly different look at
Asuka, that some people may disagree with.
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Asuka's Love
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All Neon Genesis Evangelion characters owned by the great people at Gainax.
Don't sue me, I've got no money to take.
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I still remember the first time I realized I was falling for Shinji. It
was when we were fighting the 8th Angel. You remember, the one that was
incubating in that volcano? When I saw Shinji's Eva hanging off the
coolant pipes, saving me from sinking to my death, I almost cried.
It's that side of Shinji I love. The side that doesn't think about
himself, doesn't complain or whine, just acts. It's that side of Shinji
that's the hero. A real man. It's that side of him that's the best Eva
pilot, so competent, so amazing at what he does that while I seethe with
jealousy I can't help but fall even more for him.
So I guess I can't really be blamed for getting so angry at him all the
time. I mean, I've seen the real Shinji he hides under that soft, cowardly
exterior. But he covers it with that apologetic wimp of a boy, who lets
everyone and everything roll right over him, and it drives me insane.
He just gives in to everyone. Especially his father. I want to hate Gendou
for what he does to Shinji, I really do, but without that bastard I'd never
see the side of Shinji I miss. I want to be the one who brings that side
of him forward. Not Gendou. Not Misato. Not Wonder Girl. Me.
Shinji and the others find me annoying and irritating. They think I'm a
full-of-herself bitch, who think she's better than everyone else. I know
I'm not. Shinji is the best Eva pilot, isn't he? He's the one who they
turn to first when they need a hero, not me. Even I turned to him first
once.
God, I wanted to scream when Shinji disappeared inside the 12th Angel.
That shadow just swallowed him up, and took him from me, and I thought I'd
die. It wasn't only that it took Shinji away, it took Shinji away when he
was at his best. It took him when he was being a hero. I tried to hide
how I felt behind the mask of the bitch, but Wonder Girl knew. When she
grabbed my arm, and gave me that stare, I was sure I was going to collapse
right there.
And then Shinji came back. His Eva tore out of the angel like a wild
beast, and roared as it reached the air. I was horrified. I was piloting
something like that. I was in a barely controlled monster. Worst of all,
my Shinji was in that rampaging thing.
Misato asks me why I always pick on Shinji. I tell her it's because he's
such a weak, whiny, little child, but that's not the truth. How can I tell
her it's because I want to see the other Shinji? How can I tell her that
it's the only way I know of the bring forward the Shinji I want? The
Shinji who pilots Evas better than anyone? That's why I push him, and nag
him, and try to make him stand up for himself.
I want to see that Shinji. I want to see the Shinji who fights Angels ike
a genius, a god of war. I want to see the Shinji who made me use an AT
field in a way I never dreamed of, who jumped into a volcano to save my
life. The Shinji I used my Eva to protect from the 9th Angel's acid.
The Shinji I respect.
The Shinji I love.
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Christopher "God-boy" Angel
cja124@mail.usask.ca http://www.engr.usask.ca/~cja124
"Some people LOOK marvelous, some people ACT marvelous.
I? I just AM marvelous." - anonymous