Subject: Re: [FFML] Goddess of My Harmful Deeds
From: Sebastian Weinberg
Date: 5/5/1998, 9:12 AM
To: Fanfiction ML


Mina-san, Ohayou!

In message <000201bd7667$f4af9a60$4a92e1cf@sterman>
          "Richard Lawson" <sterman@uswest.net> wrote:

: Usually, however, such recollections are
: tinged with melancholy,

<nod>


: The
: past is also filled with regret, of sometimes painful longing for the road
: not taken, misgiving for the ill deed committed, remorse for the wrong
: never set right.

Better.  But you know, I wonder about the "of" before sometimes. 
It seems disjointed - isn't it missing its first referent?


: 
: Goddess of My Harmful Deeds
: 
: by Richard Lawson
: 

Mk.II :)


: She'd found a barred window and had attempted to rip it open.  That had
: proven much harder than she'd thought;

"Proved", I believe.


: She was under no circumstances going back to
: that place she'd awoken in this morning.

U-huh.  Better. :)


: Speech was difficult, but she forced herself.  "What's wrong, Kasumi?  Why
: are you afraid?"
: 
: Kasumi merely trembled where she stood.
: 
: Akane drew another breath.  "Please, what's going on?  Where... where's
: Ranma?"

Also better, I believe.


: Tofu felt Akane's head carefully, then turned to Ranma.  "There seems to
: be nothing physically wrong with her.  She may have just been dreaming."

<nod>


: "Never to my knowledge," she said.

:)


: Ranma felt himself regaining his balance.  He knew that calling the Onos
: was the right thing to do.  They were here to help, and together, he and
: they would make things all right.

Better.


: Ranma grit his teeth for a second, then spoke slowly and calmly.  "Kasumi.
: I know she's your sister.  She's my wife, too.

Also good.  Much more IC this way, IMO.


: "GO AWAY!  GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK!"

And Nodoka has gotten over her tendency to be... locationally
challenged. :)


: Akane clenched her jaw.

Probably better.  Gritting your teeth too often is probably bad
for you.  :)


: "DON'T PLAY GAMES WITH ME, RANMA!"  She gave him a vicious open-handed
: slap.  Ranma was so mesmerized by her total fury that he didn't try to
: block it.

Ah, you corrected this for Ranma's changed location.  Frankly, the
relative positions of the characters completely slipped me by when
I read this the last time.  I was too caught up in the action. (or
rather creeped out.)


: Akane looked at a marker, a marker with letters that should spell a name,

Pst, Zen?  THRRRRRRRRRPT!  :PPP~

;)


: "Blood, my whole life is blood, blood and candy... and I don't know which
: is worse."

Hmm, yes.  The ellipsis improves the timing of the sentence.


: but I couldn't get past the
: anger, the anger that lived inside me and made me think bad things about
: you and made me hit you, harder and harder and harder and HARDER..."

Whoah!  Much more impact this way.  Brrr.


: "No you're NOT!"  Akane's voice became shrill.  "YOU'RE not fine, I'M not
: fine, it will never be 'fine'."

Changed the emphasis here.  Works better, I think.


: "No!"  She squeezed her eyes shut.  "We... forsaken, I'm... *you* did
: this!  You were with *her*, you were *her* friend and you were *never* my
: friend and I hated you and loved you and hated you and... and... and I had
: a katana in my hands... and *she* was there and I hate her, I hate her
: *so* much and... and..."

Yes, I think this is much closer to what TILkane would feel and
say.  Brrr.


: "You don't blame me?  For killing you?"
: 
: Ranma suppressed a twinge and instead smiled gently.  "I... well, I
: forgive you."

:)  Good.


: Her eyes moved over to the other markers.  She flinched and looked away.
: "No," she said softly.
: 
: Ryoga cocked his head.  "What?"
: 
: Tears began to fall from her eyes.  "No!  He was alive.  I saw him and
: talked to him and he was alive, oh God oh God no no no NO!"  She covered
: her face with her hands.
: 
: Ryoga rushed over to her.  "Akane, it's okay.  Please, don't... don't do
: this."
: 
: She trembled, lowered her hands, and studied them carefully.  "Blood.  My
: hands were bleeding just now.  Ranma... Ranma's stomach was... was..."
: 
: Slowly, with considerable effort, she turned to face the markers.  She
: stared at them for a long time, breathing heavily.  Ryoga didn't know what
: to do, so did nothing, praying that something good would happen.
: 
: Finally she looked back at Ryoga, tears still running down her face.
: "Ranma's dead.  Isn't he?"
: 
: Ryoga slowly nodded.
: 
: Akane looked down at her hands.  "And... and I killed him, didn't I?"
: 
: A bit of relief flooded Ryoga.  At last she was acknowledging it.  "Yes."
: 
: Akane went over to Ranma's marker.  She put a trembling hand on it.
: "Ranma.  Thank you for... for what you said, for helping me, for being
: alive even though you're dead.  I promise I'll try.  I'll get better
: because you want me to."  She leaned over Ranma's marker and spoke in an
: agonize whisper.  "But it hurts so much."

Hot damn!  This is improved by orders of magnitude.


: "Okay."  She straightened and turned towards him.  "You're Ryoga, right?"
: 
: He sighed heavily.  "Yes.  I'm Ryoga."

: "Thank you, P-chan."  Akane smiled, then looked forward and begin humming
: softly as she walked.  Ryoga looked over at Akari in surprise, finding
: relief and amusement in her eyes.

:D  Great!  Obviously she could only figure it out while her mind
was detached from the reality of her life. :)

But it's "began".


: "Hush, Akane."  Ranma shook her.  "I forgive you.  I mean, I wasn't no
: good either.  I insulted you plenty of times."

Hmmm.  Actually I liked the previous version better, but I think
Zen's opinion should govern here.  How 'bout it, Zen?  Is this
better?


: Ranma drew a big breath.  "Okay.  You're right, hitting wasn't so good,
: especially when you did it out of anger.  But Akane... you'd never kill
: me.  I know that.  If you were to ever get *that* carried away, I would
: stop you.  But you never did.  Even in your rage you had control.  Please,
: don't worry that you'd ever really hurt me.  You haven't.  And you won't."
: 
: Akane sighed loudly.  "Th-thank you, Ranma.  I will never... never strike
: you in anger again."
: 
: Ranma smiled gently.  "Okay.  Sounds fair.  But do remember to keep
: calling me an idiot when I deserve it.  Hell, I hope you'll hit me over
: the head with a mallet *once* in a while, for old time's sake, even if you
: don't do it out of anger.  It wouldn't be the same otherwise."

Heh!  Nice.  I like it.


: AUTHOR'S NOTES
: 
: "The Bitter End" is by Zen.  He has kindly allowed me to use his
: characters in this story.  If you haven't read it, do.  It's an excellent
: piece of work.

I do not doubt that.


: "Thy Inward Love" is by me, of course.  Consider TIL and TBE to be the
: bookends of possible endings to a Ranma/Akane marriage.  :)

Now for a crossover with _Sour Times_... :)


Sebastian
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