I wrote this on a whim and took me about an hour and a half to write.
I've never sent a fic before so be kind. C&C welcome, of course. Oh yeah
this has probably been done before and if it has tell me.

Standard Disclaimer: Ranma 1/2 does not belong to me. It belongs to
Rumiko Takehashi. This was not done for profit in anyway so please don't
sue me. You'd probably lose money but taking what little I have.

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                                                        Excerpts From A
Journal

 Today was not the best of days. Started out normal enough with me and
Pop having our morning spar. After sending Pop into the pond and
avoiding his attempts to splash me with water in the pond I felt I was
having a good day. I must have jinxed myself because my day just went
downhill from there. First Akane decided to cook breakfast. As usual
everybody suddenly had something else to do when Akane served breakfast.
I was about to run for it but she roughly grabbed me by my shoulders and
sat me down. At this point I decide to just face it like a man. I guess
that's how Mom would want it. On my plate was an almost round, pale
brown piece of ... something that was only moving a little. It looked
like she was experimenting again. I took a small bite and it was
actually _good_. By Akane standards that is. It wasn't the usual toxic
stuff. It didn't make me gag and it wasn't moving oddly in my mouth. It
was completely bland but edible. I tried to compliment her and told her
that the okinamiyaki wasn't too bad. Apparently it wasn't okinamiyaki
(as if anyone could really tell what she's ever cooked) as she lost her
temper and punted me towards school.

 Pre-school activities were nothing unusual except no Shampoo glomping
on me. Kuno as always demanded that I free Akane and 'the Pig-tailed
Goddess' from my sorcery and attacked me. Of course I knocked him out
with one punch but it starting to get annoying, you know. I wonder why
the Kuno's are so ... insane. I mean they give me the creeps and the
last time I was at the Kuno mansion I got this wierd feeling while I was
there. I think the place is haunted. I should look into it sometime.

 For once I got to class on time. Akane as expected was ignoring me.
Ukyo on the other hand was looking at me with, the best I can describe,
a look of longing. Well she can suffer a little longer. I haven't talked
to her in almost two weeks ever since what she and Shampoo did at the
wedding. I haven't talked to Shampoo, either, in almost as long. Though
Shampoo did come up to me the day after the wedding and acting like
nothing ever happened the day before. In anger I told Shampoo off but I
never apoligized. I never will until she apologizes for what she did.

 Ukyo on the other hand looked like she expected me to walk up to her
and forgive her. I decided to wait her out. I wasn't going to forgive
her unless she told me why she did what she did. Well during lunch we
finally had our talk. Akane, of course, gave a jealous glare when she
saw me and Ukyo talking under a tree. Luckily Akane didn't butt into my
talk into Ukyo. She immediately apoligized for what happened at the
wedding. I could tell that she did regret her actions. Of course I
forgave her, she's one of my best friends after all. She said she didn't
want me to be forced into an unwanted wedding. I asked her if it was
really an unwanted marraige. She had a look of shock on her face. Ukyo
then asked me if I loved her. I answered after a couple of minutes of
thought. She's asked me before and I've avoided answering her but now I
told her the truth. I told her I did love her. Of course she immediately
overreacted and was about to give me a hug but I quickly finished that I
didn't love her  in that way. I explained that I did love her but like a
sister. She looked like she had just lost the biggest fight of her life.
In a way she had. Really how else could I put it to her without saying
that if it weren't for my love for Akane that I would have married her
without second thought. It was for the best.

 What day wouldn't be complete without Ryoga going for a sneak attack
after school. Of course he gave himself away by telling me to prepare to
die, but a sneak attack is still a sneak attack. Apparently he learned
a new technique as he was able to delay his Bakusai-Ten-Ketsu technique.
He would strike the ground and it wouldn't explode for at least several
seconds. It was obvious that the challenge was because he thought the
new technique would give him the edge to beat me. Nothing new.

 But one thing did get to me. During the fight he called me dishonorable
and a cheater. He was one to talk. This guy who tries to ambush me every
other time he sees me. He teams up with Mousse on a few occasions to try
to _kill_ me. On the first day we meet after years, he tries to attack
me in my sleep. All this over a bread feud and a duel _he_ didn't show
up for! But worst of all he _still_ sleeps with Akane in his cursed form
taking advantage of the fact that I won't tell Akane his secret because
I gave my word! I may not use the fairest means to win every fight, it
can't helped sometimes, but I always try to keep my word. Always. So for
one of the few times in my life I was really mad.

 What Ryoga didn't know was that I've been pulling my punches against
him for a couple of months now. Of course he didn't notice that I was
slower then I used to be, my technique a little sloppy, and my punches
only at half strength. But then again he always did seem to have a
selective memory. As this was the first time that I've gone all out on
him in a while, he was caught be surprise. I pummeled him in little over
a minute.

 After I knocked Ryoga unconscious Akane accused me of picking on Ryoga.
If she paid any attention then she would have noticed that Ryoga was the
one who attacked me and started the fight. Hell if she ever paid any
attention she would notice that nine out of ten times Ryoga starts our
fights. She always thinks the worst of me. I thinks that's why I've
never tell her how I really feel. That I love her. How can I trust her
with my deepest feellngs if she can't even trust me and take my word.
When have I ever outright lied to her? Never. Then if I did tell her
what would she do. Would she laugh? Reject me? Ridicule me? How can I be
sure when she shows Ryoga as much kindness as she does to me? I can
never be sure. I might never know. Of course we get into an arguement
and she ends up punting me again and I land in the Tendo's Koi pond,
Even after a year I'm still shocked by the change.

 I hopped on the roof after I changed back and stayed there until dinner
starts. I wanted to be alone for the rest of the day. Today was not a
good day. I think I've lost my best friend, had my honored questioned
and my relationship with Akane is worse off then it has ever been
before. At least Nabiki was on a field trip till tomorrow or today could
have been a lot worse.


Ranma Saotome