This story is ORIGINAL{Yes, it is ORIGINAL. No joke!} It is based on no
anime therefore I have no copyrights to post. But, this fic was INSPIRED
by{Not copied or anything like that. When I started writing this the
game wasn't even out. It came out June 24 in Japan. It might never be
released here in North America.} Persona 2: innocent sin. A game by
Atlus.

WARNING: This story contains, murder, blood and demonic and sad themes.
That's why it's dark. Sorry, no rape.
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                  Part 7 of, The seven sins and virtues......

    Everything was wrong I my life, everything screwed up. was I really
the spirit of unresting love? And was Sarah really the spirit of
generosity? Did I really meet an angel who told me all of this? Was this
all a dream I could wake up from? Oh how I wished I could wake up from
it. To awake and wipe the sweat from my head saying it was just a dream,
that�s what I
want to do. Being a hero is not easy. I have not done anything yet and I
feel such stress, such great force against me.
    Now I have to stop Sarah from bringing judgement day upon mankind.
Why did she enter my house and kill all of her followers? Why did she
kill my mom?! Damn this Sarah, I want the old Sarah back. But I won�t
get her. I have to worry about my self now and hope my soul doesn�t wall
into Satan�s hands.
    And now the thought that I am going insane is just creating for
stress on me. The only thing that�s holding me up is my hope and
despair. Both of these things are related to Sarah. It seems everything
now a days revolves around Sarah, and in a bad way at that. If only I
could get the old Sarah back. Just one wish.......
    Blackness was around me, an eternal blackness. This was a bleak
existence that I had become accustomed to. My whole world seemed to have
turned a darker shade of black then I
expected. I always saw the world in blacks and greys, now I only see the
black. A color reflects ones mood very well, that�s why I wear black.
But I feel the time of bleakness will end soon. If only I could see the
real Sarah again.
    I heard the sound of crying, yes it was definitely crying. It seems
that the little kid is back. I walked towards the sound, slowly, but a
steady pace. No matter how much time passes here, there is no fixed
point of when I will awake. When it reach�s that time in the world, I
will wake up. time doesn�t flow at all here. One hour here, is equal to
how much time you think has passed out there. This is my dream, my mind.
So I can shape time itself here.
    As I walked towards the crying, it became more pronounced. And the
same thing happened to the figure which the sound belonged to. The
little kid came into view. But this time he wasn�t curled up into a
ball. Actually he was standing tall and proud, holding the object in his
left hand. He wasn�t crying, where was it coming from?
    The kid bowed. �Hello! It�s good to see you again. I feel so much
better now.� He raised his hands into the air and smiled.
    I was surprised, I wondered what part of me was happy. I didn�t feel
myself being happy. Who was this? �Why are you so happy? You seemed so
sorrowful last time I was here.� My voice sounded flat and emotionless,
as though I didn�t like this part of me. As though the happiness seemed
to mock how I felt.
    The kid�s smile seemed to falter for a second. He was me, therefore
he knew what I thought. He knew I didn�t like him. �Your mean mister! If
I wasn�t here, you would be dead. My
happiness benefits you. Would you prefer if I start crying like your
soul is now?�
    I frowned at him and crossed my arms, giving him an angry look. �So
what? I�m just as happy being full of pity. I don�t need to be rid of
it.� I knew I was lying to him. And he knew as well. Damn him! I can�t
say anything to him!
    �You�re lying mister. This is what you have caused. Trying to
forsake your love for Sarah. You want the pain to end, and you�ll
destroy everything human within you to do it. Trying to revoke true love
will only lead to your demise! See the fruits of your action!� He waved
his hand and the whole world of shadows was replaced by a movie. The
pictures moving all around, depicting a war. Two factions with guns
running at each other, ready to fight. Whatever these represented, I
didn�t know.
    The forces were on a grassy green field. Flat, clear, making a
beautiful scene. But the armies were about to destroy the tranquility,
with death. One side clad all in blue, the other red. They all carried
different guns and just stood still, waiting for the command. Then it
came and they all charged at each other.
    People of all ages, shapes, sizes and genders fought with guns.
Shooting each other down. Blood was everywhere, being soaked up by the
ground. I watched as they all died, one after another. Blood spilt
everywhere, just like at my house. The blood, just like when my mother
died. All the six hundred and sixty even people, killed. Left to die in
my house. Why? At that moment I felt my mind tearing in half.
    The kid looked down at me in pity as I fell down on my knees,
clutching my head, trying to shake away the pain. �Do you feel that
mister? That�s what you caused. This is a battle of love. The army in
red represents the heat, the warmth of love. The blue represents the
ice, the chill of loneliness. This is what you wanted, to be rid of the
pain. To be rid of your love for her so that the pain of love will not
hurt you. But loneliness is more painful then love in the long run.�
    I looked up at him, into those eyes. The eyes filled with the pity I
hated. I didn�t want pity, I just wanted the pain to end. I just wanted
to be left alone with Sarah. Just me and Sarah, or just me alone. Either
way the pain will end. I would prefer to be with Sarah, but you can�t
always get what you want. �Turn it off! I can�t stand the pain of this!
I can�t stand what I have caused. I can�t stand myself! I just want to
be alone!� I felt the picture of Sarah placed at the front of my mind
begin to slip away. The only thing keeping me sane was out of my grasp.
    The kid shook his head as he threw the object to the ground, and
then the movie stopped. �There is no need for this anymore. And since
you are leaving I will tell you who I am. I am your judgement and sanity
molded into one. I am what keeps you sane and keeps you from doing
wrong. I am the most powerful part of you besides your love, which you
have just locked away. But I have failed my job, it is now time for me
to relax and let your insanity take over.�
    As the words escaped his lips a copy of him appeared except there
were a few differences. This one was dressed in all black, his black
hair was a blood red. His eyes were the same red, glaring down at me as
I still kneeled in pain. He had two black horns coming out of his head
and two fangs hanging in his mouth. The evil version of my sanity.
�Goodbye now. I will take over. You are no longer needed, both of you.�
    While I watched, I felt my body sink into the shadows, vanishing
slowly, being sucked down as though I was in quicksand. And the little
version of me vanished with a frown on his face, shaking his head.
    Then as the final part of my body began to sink I saw my insanity,
laughing at me, watching me fall into nothingness. And blackness
engulfed me......
    I floated in a darkness darker then the last place I was at. A cold
darkness, like a bitter, winters night. It was not the most pleasant
feeling. I know knew what insanity was like. It was not your mind being
altered, twisted out of your control. It is victory, a war won. On side
defeats another, pushing it away from the mind. That�s what happened to
me.
    Now what will I spend my time doing? Thinking of my love for Sarah?
My pity towards myself? Why should I have pity at all? I got what I
wanted, I got to be alone, away from the pain. But yet it seems just as
the kid said, loneliness, a deep loneliness. Maybe if I knew what it was
like before, I would have fought harder to hold my ground.
    Then I saw something in front of me, an image emerging from the cold
darkness. Two figures, each looking like me. One male, one female. The
female one did look like me to a certain extent but with certain things
which proved she was a female. The man wore a long blue robe while the
woman wore a long purple one. They both had black hair, but the man�s
hair was short and the woman�s was long.
    They both bowed as they moved closer to me. The man talked first.
�Hello Ryan. I am your despair, the despair over your lost love.� The
woman then talked. �I am your hope, the
hope for Sarah�s return.� Both of their voices were soothing.
    I looked at each of them, what were they doing here? That became the
topic of my next question. �What are you doing here? Why don�t you leave
me alone? You two are the ones
causing my pain.�
    Both of them shook their head in unison. �No. We are just the source
of your life, we are what you draw the energy to live from. Without us,
you would have died along time ago.�
    I motioned my hand in a way to show I wanted them to go. �I don�t
care. As long as I can rest.�
    The woman frowned and then gave me an odd look. �Are you sure? We
can both tell you want Sarah back. We both know you would do anything
for her. We both know you love her with all your heart. And do not
bother to lie, we are a part of you and we know the truth.�
    I looked at them with a glare of anger. They were just like the last
person, knowing everything. Cocky bastards! �I really don�t care any
more.�
    This time the man stepped forward to talk. �Oh really? Do you want
this?� He waved his hand and a large screen appeared in midair. Then it
lit up and showed images. Not images a movie, no a vision. A vision of
the city being destroyed by a rain of blood. A vision of dark fire
laying siege to mankind. A vision of the end, of judgement day.
    As the people died, I felt a hole burning in my soul. So many dead.
Everyone was dying and it was over power. And why did I have to be
caught in this struggle. Why couldn�t I lead a normal life? Was it
because of the spirit within me? Was it because I could not let go of
love no matter how hard it tried to get away?
    The man then continued his talking. �This will happen if you give
up. if you take the easy way out. If you leave Sarah behind. Will you
let her die? Will you let the world die? Will you let the world end just
to be alone? Would you kill billions just to fulfil your desires? Would
you be so greedy? Letting them die like this is just as bad as killing
them all your life. Are you ready to commit genocide? Ready to stain
your hands with the blood of the innocent? Are you?�
    That finally threw me over the edge. I had enough of this, I hated
everything at that moment. I knew it was all true, but I couldn�t accept
it, so I lashed out at them. I attacked them
but to no avail.
    After I had given up and fell to my knees once again they continued.
�You cannot kill us, we are you. Just let the truth run through you and
everything will be okay.�
    I looked at them as though they were crazy, but I soon changed my
mind. Through the darkness and evil, something dropped from the sky.
Dropping slowly, almost floating down it fell in front of me. It was the
object which my sanity held do dear to him, the object which powered him
and me. Which gave him and me life.
    I moved from my kneeling position to one of sitting, crossed legged.
I picked up the object and it glowed a holy white. The light radiated
and engulfed me where darkness once stood. And once it had cleared, the
darkness of the pit which I was in was changed to a holy white.
    I stood up, knowing I could now. Something about this object was so
special that it could light up the world. It looked like just a flat
piece of wood from the back, but I quickly flipped it over. And I was
surprised to see what it was.
    The object was a picture frame. On the front side there was a
picture of Sarah glued to it. Such a small object seemed to light up
this place within my mind. It kept my sanity and judgement going. I then
knew what had to be done.
    I looked over at hope and despair and they smiled back at me,
holding hands. �Coupled together we are the force that gives you the
power to pursue your love. The power which comes from your love powers
that power to make an eternal cycle. Now go, find Sarah so we may all be
whole again.�
    I then vanished into the light...........
    I looked to see my insanity laughing away, pondering what to do with
his knew power. But I wouldn�t let him. �Shuddap you! Get the hell out
of me!�
    Insanity turned around and as he saw me he let out a sadistic smile.
�Oh, you�re still alive? But you won�t be for long. The body is mine
now! And a pathetic fool like you will never take it from me!�
    When he finished with that he held his hand towards me, palm facing
me. When he did this, I felt a crushing pain as though I was being
squeezed. As insanity tightened its hand into a fist, I felt the life
being sucked out of me. I began to spit out blood onto the floor.
Crimson red blood, just like that in my house. Maybe now I would join my
mom and dad. Maybe I could find the real Sarah when I died.
    Then I heard a shout from insanity, the word fuck. As I opened my
eyes since the pain stopped I saw insanity, dead on the floor. A bullet
wound on his chest. Black blood poured out of, black blood to match the
area.
    I looked at the man who shot him, my sanity. Smoke rose from the
revolver�s barrel. Soon it dissipated and he put it away. �I�m glad to
see you made it out alive.�
    I looked at him, he seemed stronger then the last time I saw him.
�Yes. But do I go back now? Is that it?�
    He nodded. �That�s it. You slew the one thing that stopped you from
utilizing you power and seeing your love. Just as Azreal said. The power
that resisted it all is now vanquished.�
    I smiled as I began to fade away. Then I decided to give him
something. �Here, it belongs to you.� I threw him the picture which I
had been holding the whole time.�
    �Thanks.� He said with a smile on his face.
    Just before I left, I asked one more question. �This is all
symbolic. What does it all mean anyway�s?�
    All I got was a shrug, I didn�t need anymore. I already knew the
truth........
    I awoke to see Azreal look down at me. �Did everything work out
well? It seems the resistance within you is gone. You can now go save
Sarah.�
    I got up and nodded slowly. I was feeling better, a little more
mentally stable. But everything wouldn�t go together right until Sarah
was okay. �So where do I go now?�
    Azreal looked up at the sky and then down at the blood soaked floor.
�Hell. You will have to go to hell and confront Satan for her soul. But
beware of Lilith, she wanders around and removes any threats to her
love.�
    �So when do I go and how do I get there?� I seemed like a pretty
crappy hero, not knowing where I was going and how to get there. Am I
supposed to save the world? I�m almost insane! If I ever get through
this, I know something bad will happen. My life is always screwed up. if
only love conquered all.
    Azreal waved her hand in front of her and a large opening vortex
appeared. A combination of black and blue it was very thin but quite big
besides that. Big enough for three men to walk through at once. �You
leave now. You go through here. And remember one thing. Your hope and
despair are your most powerful weapons, use it well. I will be watching
you. But only you can defeat Satan, you and you alone.�
    And so I left through the vortex, not knowing what to expect.
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This story gets REALLY twisted at the end, actually next chapter it has
a WEIRD plot twist I never planned before. Oh well! Please send C and C,
or flames. I REALLY need them.