Subject: [FFML] DITD: Embracing the Sword (Chapter 3)
From: "Siew Lee, Wong" <wsiewlee@tm.net.my>
Date: 12/11/1999, 3:37 PM
To: ffml@fanfic.com, kffdisc@onelist.com

Hello everyone! I'm back with chapter 3 of 'Embracing the Sword' this time.
=) I guess I have to make up for my absence during the past six months, ne?
Anyway, I think this chapter is better than the last and I can't say lots
of things since I'm pretty nervous about this epic. This is the only time I
have been so serious about a fanfic... Anyway, all comments are very much
appreciated and please do give feedback. 

Special credits go to Susan for giving me precious infomation on social
practises during the Tokugawa period. Thanks also go out to my team (!) of
pre-readers. =) I love you guys! 

Note: All previous chapters are posted on my website at
http://hotohori.uhome.net 

Siew Lee 
yume@hotohori.uhome.net 
http://hotohori.uhome.net 


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			    Dreams in the Dark 

		Part 1 : Embracing the Sword (Chapter 3)

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	He swallowed nervously and cringed a little when a soft gust of 
the Okashira's shallow breathing grazed across his cheek. 

	"Are you afraid of me?" the Okashira whispered and slid a hand 
down the boy's chest, feeling his fear through the coarse cloth. 
Aoshi edged away instinctively, his eyes blinking with a startled 
look. 

	"Answer me, boy," pressed the Okashira and moved closer to 
Aoshi until his thin lips were almost touching the boy's right cheek. 
Stretching out his left hand, he ran his bony fingers through the 
boy's silky hair. 

	"N... No..." lied Aoshi and gritted his teeth, his limbs 
growing wobbly and weak from shock and fear. He shifted 
uncomfortably and swallowed; the old Okashira was caressing him on 
his side with a feather-like touch while his warm breath grazed the 
boy's delicate skin. Aoshi didn't struggle at all, his body already 
numb, unresponsive to his silent plea to move. 

	"You are lying! Didn't your haha-ue taught you your moral 
values?" hissed the Okashira, making the young boy shudder in fear. 
He suddenly grabbed the young boy by his shoulders and looked at him 
straight in the eyes. "I have lived in this world for more than sixty 
years and I can read your fears." 

	"Yes..." stumbled Aoshi and looked away, not wanting to make 
contact with those mysterious pools of dark blue in the Okashira's 
eyes. 

	"If you want to be a successful swordsman, you must conquer 
your fear. What is your fear?" smiled the old man, stepping back a 
step, his eyes remaining at the same level as Aoshi's. 

	"I'm scared of blood and rats..." replied Aoshi uncertainly. 

	"Foolish answer! That is a phobia. You can overcome it easily! 
Tell me your greatest fear," spat the old man and cuffed his sleeves, 
the fabric making a rustling sound when he flapped them. "Try again." 

	"The fear of not knowing..." whispered Aoshi softly, his hands 
clenching, his knuckles turning white. 

	"Yes," nodded the Okashira and flashed Aoshi a small smile. 
"You learn quickly, ne?" As he said that, the Okashira moved closer 
to the boy until their faces were only inches apart. 

	"Okashira..." Aoshi began and paused for a while. *Haha-ue told 
me to get help from him... He shouldn't be a bad person right?* 
a small voice whispered deep down in his heart, trying to convince 
himself that those perceptions he received were actually a case of 
hyper-sensitivity. Slowly but steadily, Aoshi pushed his fear back 
into a deep corner of his conscious mind. 

	"Yes?" 

	"Do you know what happened to the Matsudaira family?" 
questioned Aoshi in turn, his blue-gray eyes looking intently into 
the Okashira's dark blue ones. 

	"Yes, I do." 

	"Would you help me to find the murderer?" 

	Suddenly, the Okashira stood up and began walking back towards 
his elevated seat. Aoshi gazed at his retreating form in surprise and 
alarm. With beads of cold sweat rolling down his forehead, Aoshi 
asked with a timid voice, "Did I say something wrong?" 

	The old man stopped in his tracks and turned his head sideways 
to look at Aoshi through the corner of his eye. "No, you didn't. Your 
question is perfectly understandable, excepting the fact that it's a 
nonsensical thought from your head," breathed out the Okashira as he 
heaved a small sigh. He shook his head and resumed his even pacing. 

	The Okashira sat down gingerly on his seat and gazed at Aoshi 
deeply. "You can't take revenge..." started the old man firmly and 
stroked his wispy beard. 

	Those words hit Aoshi like a brick wall and knocked the air out 
of him. He blinked a few times in shock. "Why? They murdered my 
family! They murdered my mother!" whimpered Aoshi helplessly, 
momentarily losing control of his own emotions. All that he had been 
striving for had been lost just because that old man said he was not 
allowed to! 

	"You will understand when you are older..." replied the 
Okashira simply and closed his eyes, getting ready for a bout of 
meditation. 

	"But..." 

	"You can go now. Okina's waiting outside," interrupted the old 
man and waved slightly, gesturing Aoshi to go out. 

	"Please advise me! Will the Oniwabanshuu help me?" 

	The Okashira opened his eyes slowly and gazed at Aoshi deeply. 
"You will face the four levels in our qualifying test which an 
outsider has to go through to prove your worthiness to us . Let me 
remind you, the test is difficult one, even for an adult. It's your 
choice whether to take up this challenge or not," whispered the old 
man in a near-inaudible tone. "Remember, you can take control of your 
own life. You know what you want in the first place. Make your own 
decision and tell me. Now go and have a good night's rest. I'll give 
you two years to prepare before I start the first level." 

	"What test? What four levels?" 

	"For the meantime, you are still not a member of the 
Oniwabanshuu. Ask Okina and he will explain everything to you. Now 
go." 

	Aoshi was still befuddled with the Okashira's words but seeing 
the old man's serene expression, he decided against asking for more 
details. *Besides, I can always ask Okina, right?* whispered Aoshi 
softly in his heart. 

	Giving a little bow, Aoshi treaded backwards before finally 
turning around to exit the small chamber. Carefully, determined not 
to make any abrupt noise, Aoshi pulled the sliding door aside and 
stepped out. Slowly, the door slid shut again with a soft thud. 

	The Okashira stared at the door for a long time through half-
closed eyelids, his mind racing through Aoshi's expressions and 
determination. It had been a long, long time since he had last seen 
that type of light in a person's eyes. 

	So wild, so enthusiastic, so full of energy and will power. 

	Aoshi reminded him of someone. 

	The boy reminded him of himself. 

	The old man let out a soft chuckle and leaned against a few 
cushions placed behind him. 

	*He will be the Okashira of the Onmitsu Oniwabanshuu in the 
future. I can feel it. My own son is not worthy enough.* 

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	"How is it?" asked a familiar voice. A hand rested on his left 
shoulder as Aoshi looked down at his feet. Slowly, he shook his head 
and sighed. 

	"Okina, what are the four levels in the qualifying test?" asked 
the young boy, the Okashira's words still repeating themselves in his 
mind. "He told me to ask you..." 

	"Four levels? Yes... The test..." mumbled Okina absentmindedly 
and released his gentle hold on Aoshi's shoulder blades. Aoshi took 
Okina's hand and looked up at him. 

	"What is it about?" 

	"Aoshi, you must understand that you are not a member of the 
Onmitsu Oniwabanshuu yet; but there is hope, for Okashira has told 
you about this trial. Before you can actually learn our secret 
techniques, you must be initiated into the shogun's service," smiled 
Okina wryly, his thin lips curving slightly upwards. 

	The boy scratched his head and shrugged his shoulders. "Why?" 
he asked. 

	"To show us that you are worthy to be one of us," replied Okina 
simply and began walking through the secluded garden path. "To enter 
the Onmitsu Oniwanbanshuu clan, one of your parents must be an Oniwan 
member or else you have to prove yourself worthy to be adopted into 
our clan." 

	"I'm worthy enough. I'm a Matsudaira." 

	"So what if you are a Matsudaira? The Onmitsu Oniwabanshuu 
accepts its members based on their capabilities, not by their social 
status. Worthy enough? No, you are not. At least, not yet," breathed 
out Okina slowly. Deep in his heart, he knew that Aoshi stood no 
chance in the four tests. How could a boy outshine his peers by 
crying everyday and thinking of his dearest haha-ue? *He's too weak 
physically, too fragile emotionally,* Okina sighed dejectedly. Aoshi 
was standing in a no-win situation. 

	"Okashira gave me two years to prepare myself for the test..." 
Aoshi trailed off. He sensed the uncertainty in Okina's voice and his 
heart was pounding wildly at the mention of a trial. Was he fit 
enough? Aoshi began fidgeting uneasily and he pulled at the collar of 
his yukata, suddenly feeling warm as cold sweat broke out. 

	"It isn't as easy as you think, boy," sighed Okina and stopped 
walking. Clutching at Aoshi's shoulders, he stooped down in a half-
kneeling position and looked at Aoshi intently. "Especially 
considering the fact that your tears flow too freely..." 

	"Okina, I have promised you I won't cry ever again; and I 
didn't shed a single tear for the entire day..." choked back Aoshi, 
the gentle night breeze ruffling his bangs. He looked pleadingly at 
Okina, his slender fingers clutching the man's bony ones. "I 
promise... I promise I'll train hard too... I won't be lazy, I won't 
have afternoon naps..." 

	"Good then, I'll start training you tomorrow. No days off 
except for the 1st and 15th of every month. I also can't train you 
everyday, ne? Both of us will go out for some entertainment," smiled 
Okina, secretly proud of the young boy's determination. 

	"Really? That means I'll be ready for the four levels in the 
test?" exclaimed Aoshi, a wide grin immediately lighting up his face. 

	"Yes, boy, but I can't guarantee you can pass all four levels. 
It all depends on your willpower," replied Okina and flashed the boy 
a small grin. "Now go to sleep. You'll need a lot of rest for 
tomorrow," urged Okina and gave Aoshi a mild shove on the back of his 
neck. 

	Aoshi nodded happily and ran across the silent garden, leaving 
Okina to stand there by himself. Okina sucked in the cool night air, 
his eyes following the dark shape of Aoshi's figure through the 
isolated garden. 

	*That boy... He has the potential.* 

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	"Get up, Aoshi! Boy!" screamed a voice near his head. Aoshi 
stirred lazily and pulled his blanket over his head. Suddenly, a hand 
reached up and pulled away his bedclothes roughly, making Aoshi open 
his eyes at the abrupt burst of daylight. 

	"The sun is already in the middle of the sky and you are still 
sleeping?! Get up now, young man," growled the voice angrily and 
proceeded to strip him of his blanket and futon. 

	"Huh? Okina?" whimpered Aoshi, his hands trying to shield the 
piercing light from his still-sensitive eyes. 

	"Listen here, Aoshi. If you don't get yourself dressed in half 
a stick of incense time, you are going to miss breakfast," warned 
Okina, sticking his hands by his sides. Aoshi rubbed his right eye 
with a hand and looked up at Okina, his face still showing confusion. 

	"Aoshi, we have our breakfast at the first call of the rooster  
every morning and everyone's waiting for you!" continued Okina and 
tapped his left foot impatiently on the floor planks. Aoshi quickly 
took off his night yukata and shivered helplessly as the cold air 
made direct contact with his bare chest. 

	"Gomen ne... I... I can't seem to wake up..." stumbled Aoshi as 
he began to blindly grope around for his clothes. Okina rolled his 
eyes and began walking around the tiny room before his sharp eyesight 
feel on a heap of cotton fabric lying underneath a low table. 

	"Aoshi, are those yours'?" asked Okina, using the tip of his 
foot to gesture at the pile on the tatami-covered floor. 

	"Thank you!" Aoshi nearly screamed in delight and scrambled 
quickly with his hands outreached. With deft fingers, he took the top 
part of his gi and fastened the ties with a simple knot. Okina looked 
at his naked back and sighed. Aoshi began to tie a red string around 
his neck and Okina shook his head. *Now, since when did that boy 
need to have a piece of string hanging there?* He dismissed the 
thought and folded his arms. Aoshi quickly knotted his white sash 
around his waist securely. 

	"Okina, I'm ready," declared Aoshi with a proud smile. "May we 
go now?" 

	"Yes," answered Okina and strode out of the room. "Next time, 
be more punctual." 

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	Two dozen pairs of eyes stared at him as he entered the huge 
room, making Aoshi feel very self-conscious. A long table was set 
right in the middle and there were more than twenty individuals 
sitting by the table and their chopsticks were placed neatly by the 
right side of their food trays. 

	"Aoshi, take the nearest seat," urged Okina in a low whisper. 
"And, try to eat as fast as you can." Aoshi looked at him and nodded. 
Okina left him alone and strode up to the other end of the long 
wooden table before taking his seat beside an old man whom Aoshi 
recognized as the Okashira from the night before. 

	Very self-consciously, Aoshi kneeled down on the unoccupied 
tatami mat and looked down at his lap. He noticed everyone else 
seated along the table also sported similar positions, including 
Okina. 

	*Strange.* 

	There was total silence in the room. 

	There was a soft cough from the other end and Aoshi peeked up 
with profound curiosity. He saw the Okashira stand and pick up a 
small wooden baton from a serviette as he walked over to a huge brass 
gong at the side of the room. With a single fluid stroke, he raised 
his hand and struck the still object. 

	*Dong!* 

	The clear sound of the metal gong being struck rang throughout 
the entire enclosed space and very soon, the sound dimmed 
considerably. Just as the gong stopped ringing, everyone picked up 
their rice bowls instantly and began stuffing food into their mouths. 

	Aoshi looked in astonishment as he picked up his own bowl. 
There was so much food laid before him! Aoshi shot a look at a girl 
about his own age sitting opposite him. She was too, busy eating and 
stuffing food down her throat. Gradually, she looked up, as if 
feeling Aoshi's stare. 

	She smiled at him. "Ohayo..." she greeted him politely. 

	"Ohayo..." he greeted, smiling back shyly and looked away. 

	"I'm Omasu... Are you new here? I have never seen you around," 
answered the girl. Aoshi stole another look at her. *She has 
beautiful eyes,* he noted. The girl winked at him and picked up her 
chopsticks again. 

	"I... ah... I'm new here... I'm Matsudaira Aoshi and Okina 
brought me here," Aoshi introduced himself and smiled coyly at her. 

	"C'mon, why are you not eating? We have to be quick because we 
will have lots of work to finish before midday," urged the young girl 
with a twinkle in her eyes. 

	Aoshi nodded and picked up his slender pair of chopsticks. 
"Hai..." answered the boy and began concentrating on the food set 
before him. 

	He stole another glance at her and the girl looked back at him 
playfully, bringing a soft blush on Aoshi's cheeks. The young boy 
smiled weakly and started chewing on a small piece of fish. 

	"Alright everyone. Time to move on," announced a voice 
suddenly. Aoshi looked up and nearly dropped his chopsticks in 
surprise. *So fast?!* 

	"Oh, I forgot to tell you something." 

	It was Omasu again. Aoshi raised an eyebrow to look at her, his 
mysterious eyes full of questions. 

	"We, as members of the honorable Onmitsu Oniwabanshuu, really 
treasure the time we have everyday. Breakfast's already over and you 
will have to wait until noon to get your next meal," laughed the girl 
and got up from her kneeling position. 

	Aoshi stared at his own tray of untouched food, his face 
showing shock. A pair of feminine fingers began tapping on his 
shoulder just as he was about to lifted up a ball of steamed rice to 
his mouth. 

	"Time's up, young man," ordered the woman with a stern look on 
her face. "Either you get out now or you do the rest of the 
housekeeping today." 

	"Gomen..." mumbled Aoshi and got up from his seat, his stomach 
rumbling loudly. 

	"Aoshi, let's go to the courtyard where you'll meet with other 
young fellow members," interrupted a voice behind him and Aoshi 
looked behind in pure surprise. 

	"Okina..." 

	"Let's go," urged Okina and took the boy's hand, walking out of 
the huge dining chamber. 

	"Demo... De..." started Aoshi but quickly silenced himself 
after a warning look from the middle-age man. While trying to keep up 
with Okina, he kept rubbing his empty stomach, as if trying to ease 
the hunger itself. With quickened steps, he strove to keep up with 
Aoshi's speed. 

	"Aoshi," said Okina suddenly as he came to a halt as the duo 
stood under a shady tree. Turning around to face the boy, he asked, 
"Did you manage to eat anything just now?" 

	"... Yes..." replied the boy after a pregnant silence and felt 
his stomach clench pitifully. *Okina already has so much work on his 
hands... I shouldn't bother him right?* whispered Aoshi secretly in 
his heart and looked down at the pavement leading to the courtyard 
unhappily. 

	Okina heaved a heavy sigh. "I know you didn't get to eat 
anything just now..." blurted out the man and shook his head slowly. 
"You were too busy talking with that girl... Beautiful and cute girl, 
ne? She is the daughter of one of our Onmitsu warriors," grinned 
Okina and reached into the inner folds of his robe. Extracting a 
small package, he shoved it towards Aoshi's bare hands. 

	Aoshi looked up at him with questioning eyes as his fingers 
wrapped themselves around the cloth-wrapped bundle. 

	"Open it..." 

	Carefully, Aoshi began to unwrap the package with Okina smiling 
at him. "Okina, this is..." began Aoshi as a large single steamed 
rice ball peeked out from within the folds of the coarse fabric. 

	"This is for you. I knew you would be too distracted to eat 
anything with that brat of Hyobe's sitting nearby," answered Okina 
and gave the boy a friendly pat on the shoulder. "Now, eat this up 
quickly before anyone sees us." 

	"Hai!" agreed Aoshi with newfound joy immediately and started 
stuffing the food down his throat. Okina looked at him with 
amusement, his heart experiencing a warm feeling. 

	He hadn't experienced such emotions for a long time now... 
Since... since Ichiro died. With his eyes gluing themselves to the 
Aoshi face, he began reminiscing the past. 

	*His* past. 

	Faces of beautiful women and their seductive voices flooded his 
mind endlessly, like the water in a river which never stopped 
flowing. With days of pleasure and nights of passions, he had lived 
to enjoy such luxuries. Okina sighed softly and folded his arms. He 
had been very wild and carefree when he was younger and he too had 
his fair share of broken hearts, but now... he was concerned about 
the future of the Onmitsu Oniwabanshuu. His body ached for a simple 
touch from a geisha too often, that he was still visiting teahouses 
and pleasure houses a few years back then. 

	But he wasn't in the mood to go to such red light districts 
anymore. 

	Things were getting difficult nowadays. The Ishin-shishi were 
winning battle after battle, the defense of the military regime was 
already starting to crumble. Deep inside his heart, Okina knew the 
Tokugawa shogunate was nearing its final days. The man quickly 
blinked away tears as thoughts of seeing the Edo castle being torched 
and pulled down by strangers crossed his mind. 

	This also meant the Oniwabanshuu were heading for a very 
difficult period of time without financial support from the Shogun. 
The restaurant which Aoiya was currently running had already proved 
itself to be a poor source of income, only capable of supporting 
twenty men per month. Without the shogun's financial aid, their 
supply of food was getting considerably less and many of their 
servants and members had decided to seek new lives, instead of dying 
with the Oniwabanshuu. 

	They chose to leave the Shogun's service. Okina spat angrily. 
Such men were useless. No honor, no loyalty. 

	Okina knew he would never leave the Onmitsu to fend for itself. 
He had responsibility to make sure that this clan would continue to 
exist in the future. He had sold his life to the Shogun and to the 
Onmitsu Oniwabanshuu clan and he would remain loyal to them until his 
last breathing second in this world. 

	To show his loyalty, he had sacrificed many lives. Too many, in 
fact. 

	*Including your own family,* whispered a voice in his head. 
Sometimes, Okina doubted it was worthwhile, but it was already a fact 
that he had no-one with whom to share his bed. 

	Okina leaned somberly against the tree trunk behind him. Twenty 
years ago, he had a family, a very happy family. He was a proud 
father of a five year old, the proud father of Kashiwazaki Ichiro. 
He was a good husband to his wife, someone whom she could rely on. In 
short, he was a good man. 

	But he failed them. 

	He failed them just because he was too loyal. 

	He looked at Aoshi again, watching the boy chewing on the last 
piece of the rice ball. He felt responsibility for the boy. 

	Maybe he could act as a father to the poor orphan. 

	Okina smiled wryly at that thought. *Ichiro-chan would be happy 
to have a new brother...* hinted a soft voice deep in his heart. He 
smiled to the empty air again as he stroked his short goatee, 
grinning happily. 

	"Okina..." called a child's voice but the man remained still, 
his face sporting an idiotic smile. 

	"Okina..." called Aoshi again and he began tugging at the lower 
panel of Okina's haori. Okina broke out of his simple trance and 
looked at Aoshi with narrowed eyes. "What is it?" 

	"Aren't we heading for the courtyard? I thought you promised to 
train me starting today..." began Aoshi and released his grip on 
Okina's clothes. 

	"Yes, yes... Let's go," grinned Okina and gave the boy a gentle 
push before walking with the young boy along the garden path. 

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	"Ohayo Okina!" greeted a loud voice, causing Aoshi to look up 
in shock. In the distance, there was a well-built young man in his 
early twenties waving frantically at them. After seeing the man, 
Aoshi turned his head to gaze at Okina. The older man only responded 
with a slight nod of his head and continued walking. 

	"Who is he?" asked Aoshi curiously. 

	"Oh, he is our Okashira's only son," answered Okina curtly 
and smirked. "He is getting married soon." 

	"Really?" 

	"Yes. Don't ask so many questions," sighed Okina and began 
walking towards the far end of the wide courtyard. 

	"Ohayo gozaimasu, Okina," greeted another voice. This time, it 
was a female voice and through Aoshi's eyes, he saw a tall woman with 
striking features handling a halberd as she greeted Okina politely. 

	"Ohayo, pretty girl," teased Okina playfully and winked at her. 
The woman blushed and turned her head around as she began practicing 
some elaborate moves with her long weapon. Grinning widely, Okina 
proceeded to a deserted corner of the yard. 

	"Aoshi, sit down," ordered Okina when he came to a halt. There 
were two pieces of granite with flat surfaces embedded on the ground, 
one was slightly elevated while the other was considerably lower. 
Nodding once, Aoshi took his seat on the lower rock, shivering a 
little when the cool surface of the stone made contact with his body. 

	Okina smiled and sat in a meditating pose on the higher stone. 
"Today, we are not going do any physical training. As I have always 
believed, the learning of theories behind a stance is the most 
important. Do you understand this point, boy?" spoke Okina and placed 
his hands in his lap. 

	"Why is that so?" asked Aoshi, his blue-gray eyes showing 
genuine interest. 

	"There is no power in throwing a punch when you don't know 
where your opponent's weak point is. There is no strength in kicking 
an enemy when you can't break through its defense. Last of all, you 
will get injured when your judgment isn't accurate," answered Okina, 
secretly laughing when he saw the confused look on Aoshi's face. 

	"I..." 

	"Don't understand, ne? You will, when we delve deeper into the 
circle of martial arts," said Okina and breathed in deeply. "Now, 
tell me your purpose in coming to the Onmitsu Oniwabanshuu." 

	"To seek revenge," came Aoshi's curt and sharp reply. 

	"No, you are not here for revenge. No man would take revenge 
with considering about his own honor, and also the honor of the 
Onmitsu Oniwabanshuu. You are here to learn about the ways of 
becoming a samurai. You are also here to understand the ways of life 
and also, to serve our shogun," voiced out the man evenly and he 
sucked in more air before exhaling slowly. 

	"To learn about the ways of becoming a samurai," repeated Aoshi 
softly. Suddenly, memories of himself learning bushido flashed past 
his young mind. *A samurai...* 

	"To be a respectable samurai, you must master at least five 
budo and understand the ten concepts of bushido," began Okina, this 
time breaking out of the short trance which he induced himself into. 

	"What are the five budo?" asked the boy, eager to learn more 
about the ancient military arts of Japan. 

	"No, you have the wrong idea about five budo. A budo is a way 
of martial art. You must know that mastering one isn't easy. There 
are many budo available for you to learn, but it is impossible to 
master above ten of them. I, myself, only managed to master seven of 
them. As for Okashira, he had achieved the highest level for nine 
budo," explained Okina slowly as he stroked his short goatee. 

	"What about the four tests? Are they connected to all this?" 
asked the young boy persistently. 

	"Yes; in a way, yes. The four level test is important in our 
clan, each of them will drive you to the very extreme in your 
intellectuality, physical strength, judgment power and also, your 
endurance. To pass such a level is never easy, as passing each level 
is tougher than the one preceding it. At least, for the first three 
ones." 

	"What are the four levels actually?" 

	"The first level will be an in-depth test of your accuracy and 
judgment in very obscure cases. You must understand that the Onmitsu 
Oniwabanshuu works for the shogun especially in the field of 
espionage. The ability to dissect and solve a problem is very 
important to all of us." Okina paused for a moment before continuing. 
"The second is on your ability to fight with your bare hands and 
also, your physical movements. Most of the Onmitsu Oniwabanshuu clan 
members are experts in kenpo, including me. As I have mentioned 
before, our main job is to gather information from the shogun's 
enemies and to sneak into a heavily guarded castle isn't easy. To 
walk on roofs noiselessly and to climb walls without ropes are 
special abilities we need to possess." 

	"That means, the Oniwabanshuu is a ninja clan?" 

	"No, we are not a ninja clan, although we do the same type of 
work basically. We don't sell our services to anyone except the 
shogun. We have pride in our jobs, instead of those hinin who would 
die for just ten copper coins!" barked Okina and glared at Aoshi 
sharply. "We are a samurai clan. In short, we are servants to the 
shogun. Our Okashira is in fact, a high-ranking samurai." 

	"Gomen..." mumbled Aoshi, his eyes downcast. 

	"Alright Aoshi, try not to apologize so often. Have confidence 
in yourself because you will need it when you get to the third level. 
In fact, I would say this level is the toughest of all. You will be 
placed in a make-believe mission to steal a concealed scroll in the 
Okashira's quarters. In fact, I don't think anyone has managed to 
pass this level in our one century of history," said Okina and smiled 
a little, his heart feeling pity and sympathy for Aoshi's condition. 

	"I'll be the first one to pass it," declared Aoshi and looked 
at Okina seriously. "I'll beat the odds." 

	"We'll see, child. The fourth level would be the final one, the 
level which you have to demonstrate your skill in handling a weapon 
of your choice. Although it's better to train with a pre-determined 
weapon from the start, I'd recommend that you try out every single 
type before deciding on one. See my point, boy?" asked Okina, raising 
a brow in anticipation for Aoshi's answer. 

	"Yes, to find one which I would be the most comfortable with," 
replied Aoshi and nodded. 

	"I'm not very sure how Okashira is going to grade you in this 
level but I promise I'll do my best to help you, ne?" 

	"Doumo, Okina," smiled Aoshi and gave the man a slight bow. 

	"Alright, I'll show you your new friends than and I'll take you 
to our weapon department tomorrow," suggested Okina and stood up, 
with Aoshi following him. 

	As Aoshi walked behind Okina, he could sense a rush of 
adrenaline pulsing through his veins. *Yes, finally a chance to 
take a sword with my own hands...* whispered Aoshi, his mind toying 
with the thought of gripping the smooth ebony sheath of a sword 
before drawing it with a single flowing movement. He grinned happily; 
his dream of becoming a successful swordsman was already 
materializing. 

	But there was never an easy path to achieve one's hopes. 

	Little did he know he was heading to a place where death was 
the only way out. 

	Little did he know he would be forced to grow up too soon. 

	Little did he know he would grow up to be a man who would never 
let his feelings show. 

	He would be a man wearing a mask hiding his true self. 

	An invisible mask. 

	He entered this world of hatred and revenge with a child's 
footsteps, but exited with a man's strides. He had finally begun to 
embrace the sword. 

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Author's notes: 
1. During the Tokugawa reign, a person cannot simply be invited into a
clan. Clans are made up of: 
            a) members by birth right 
            b) outsiders who are adopted by male members 
The 'outsiders' stated here may be from another branch of the same clan or
total strangers. In the pre-meiji era, even adults are 'adopted' freely.
^^; It wasn't until the Meiji Restoration when this practice was stopped.
As for the four members who Aoshi recruited later, that is a different
story. Aoshi has since then stopped the practice other than the fact that
I'm going to kill that insane Okashira later. 
(source: some Japanese secondary school social science textbook... ^^;
Gotta ask Kaguya for the title) 

2. The way of keeping time in ancient Japan is rather strange and complex.
Each day is divided into 12 periods, each period 2 hours. As for minutes
and seconds, I have no idea. As for the scene where Okina instructed Aoshi
to get dressed in 'half a stick of incense time', I got that idea from some
samurai film I saw years back. ^^; Joss sticks (or incense) are made into
thin long rods and were lit at one end. I'm not sure not about their other
usages though. Maybe for some type of perfume in houses? 

3. A teahouses is a disguise for a pleasure house *sometimes*. Prostitutes
do live there and clients can pick them through a *menu*. =) 
(source: Susan) 

4. I'm really, really sorry... I promised you guys about having more action
in this chapter but it seems that my redrafting has went out of control. I
have to push all those fighting/angst parts into the next chapter. Sorry! 

Vocabulary: 
haha-ue: mother (pre-meiji era) 
haori: a type of tradition Japanese costume. Something like a lab coat but
without collars. 
hinin: Non-human. In the pre-meiji era, there are many castes and the
lowest of all is the hinin group. Ninjas are considered to be hinin. 
tatami: a type of Japanese straw mat 

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