This is the last part of "The B*tch Sessions" for now. Maybe it's the last
one period. I guess I'll just have to wait and see how many people want to
kill me for all this angst.
Warning: Spoiler for the end of the series.
Disclaimer: Shojo Kakumei Utena belongs to Saito Chiho.
~TOUGA~
Love is a funny word.
I have tons of women out there who say they love me. They love me, my car,
my money, my power. And I tell every one of them that I love them. It's so
easy to lie to a person who will believe anything you say.
She didn't believe me.
She didn't believe me, and I was telling the truth.
I told her what I really felt. It's probably the first time in my history of
womanizing that I've *ever* done that. And it's the first time anyone has
ever turned me down. I tried everything I could to get her to believe the
truth. I lied to her, bought her things, fought with her, even took away the
one dream she had.
Nothing worked.
She saw through the lies, left my presents in their boxes, defeated me, and
then took back her dream.
Even though that dream killed her. I warned her, and once again attempted to
take the dream from her … and if I could have taken those swords for her, I
would have. At least then I wouldn't have had to witness myself sobbing for
her.
She's given me a lot of firsts. I just wish that I could have been something
real for her.
If she was ever real.
No one else remembers her. It's as if she was just a story someone told me,
a story I desperately wished to be real so I could stop being such a lying
bastard. She proved that I was actually capable of real love.
Love.
I hate that word.
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~Haruka Kaoru
"Once again I'll become Shinigami ... but first, I need a nap."