Subject: [FFML] [R.5][Fragile Clay] Scene #11 of 3:1 (Apologies again)
From: "Shimitsu Kaoru" <kaoru@gci.net>
Date: 7/4/2001, 5:55 AM
To: "Fanfiction Mailing List" <ffml@anifics.com>

Apologies Again... I hope this works *Crosses fingers*

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Scene 11: "A Father's Sins"
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Gray patches of light dance across the curtains, the faint sound 
of chimes drifting in the wind.  The air is cool, moist as the wind 
stirs the drapes in a gentle caress.

Ticking.  The faint rhythm echoing in the silence of the room.  
Its origin can be traced to the small alarm clock beside two futons.  
Nine-fourty-five and twenty four seconds.

The soft smell of jasmine incense wafts on the gentle breeze, 
giving life to the otherwise drab surroundings.  Sparse, the contents 
of 
the room would take but a few moments to stuff into a satchel before 
it's occupants vanished once more into the mists of the Japanese 
forests.

Solemn.  A man sits, transfixed upon some inner turmoil, his 
breathing slow and purposeful.  The jasmine relaxes him, giving him 
calm 
and peace required for such mental exercises as he now endures.  A bead 
of sweat rolls down his brow, having escaped the bandanna wrapped 
tightly around his balding skull.

Struggle.  His face growing slack as even the soft spray of 
droplets upon the roof fades to nothing, and the world drifts to 
darkness around him.  No heat, no cold, simply emptiness.

It is a mirror of his inner state, purging thought and motion from 
his body and mind, giving over to the shape of stillness.  It had been 
decades since he had stopped the practice, ever since an old man had 
taken him under his wing as apprentice and student.

Inversion.  His ki, glowing faintly to those who are able, winks 
out, exploring the inner turmoils of his spirit.  Searching for 
illnesses of both flesh and spirit.

A soft wheezing sound pierces his meditation, his jaw clenching 
suddenly.  Foreboding.

Absently, he picks at the seam of his gi.  His mind willing the 
noise to cease, to fade off into the blackness of nothing as all other 
distractions have.

It persists.

*Not again, please.* His will falters, his body trembling in fear 
of the vision that might befall his eyes were he to dare open them, a 
vision common as of late.  A poltergeist; a shadow of the past.

The sound heightens in its volume, persistent as the wind.  Still, 
he balks.  *This is a dead thing, something of the past, something that 
cannot hurt you anymore.*

Still, the harsh wheezing drifts to his ears, burning them with 
the image of his Father.  Bedridden and ill, his Father had spent the 
last few years of his life refusing help from doctors and family, 
stubborn and unwilling to admit weakness.

With fear, his eyes finally open.  Muscles tense, and ki flickers 
uncertainly.  It was as a hundred times before, of late.  The luminance 
of his Otousan's bedroom did not wash the gray away from the old, faded 
memory.

Curtains block his vision of the skeletal form his father must 
surely resemble, in his last year of life.  His body had wasted away, 
muscles twisted painfully. even his bones had begun malformed cancerous 
growths, only adding to the pain he must surely have felt.

The wheezing continued burning into Genma's ears.

"No, No, I am not going to watch this again!" clenching his fists, 
his mouth stuttering open and closed for a moment before he raised one 
hand, shaking it at the heavens.  "Do you hear me, damn you? I will not 
go through this again!"

The only answer he received was the continuance of the feared 
sound, rhythmic and repetitive.  He could almost liken it to the 
gasping 
of his darkened soul, the prices he paid for his son.

Flying to the door, he strived for the handle, only wailing as his 
hand passed through it.  "Let me out! Let me out, you damn mad demon!  
I- I don't want this!"

"Demon?  No." A silvery voice whispered softly from behind him.

Whirling, he pressed his back against the door.  Solid enough, 
despite the handle.  His eyes danced over the familiar haunt, the 
specter who has begun haunting him, as of only a few months ago.

"Hello again, Gakusei," The slight glow of his violet eyes was all 
that permeated the shadows of his silver hood, arms crossed across his 
chest, hidden beneath the voluminous sleeves of his robes.
The voice, decidedly male, but also beautiful in a manner beyond 
gender.  Like silver wind.

Cold.  Piercing through him with a certain kind of dread, Genma's 
nails scrape across the grain of the door as his heart thunders within 
his chest.  "I am not your student!" His words angry, heat in them as 
he 
lunges at the robed man.

As many times before, he meets only with the cold floor.

"Must we truly go through this every time?  We all learn, and are 
in a process of learning.  We are, each, students within the Divine's 
temple," The man's voice echoes from behind Genma, just as many times 
before.

There is a calm acquiescence to the stranger's voice, as if there 
is no disagreement only mutual misunderstanding which has been long 
resolved.  He uses a familiarity in his tone that hints at a long 
friendship with Genma, though Genma has never met the stranger except 
in 
troubled sleep and moments of solitude.

It makes him question his own sanity.  How can he even be sure he 
was "Seeing" this stranger? There was never a person in the room with 
him when the visitations happened.  Most had happened in the silence of 
his own skull, during meditation or fitful sleep.

But not all.

A moment.  Genma realizes that the stranger's hand is extended 
towards him, ivory colored, with a soft moonlike glow.  "It is not my 
wish to torment you, Saotome Genma."

Scorning the offer, he rises on his own, dusting his gi off, eyes 
half lidded and avoiding the strange gaze of the cloaked visitor.  "Oh 
yeah? Then why do you do this?" His hand flies up, gesturing towards 
the 
wheezing which still echoes from the bed.  "Why do you always bring 
this 
to me? Why do you bring ME to HERE?"

There is a tremble in his voice, a shaking in his body.  The calm, 
almost pristine look in the stranger's eyes only fills with sorrow.

"I do not summon these images, Gakusei.  It is you who has brought 
us here, here to the root of your son's suffering.  It is always you," 
His arms once more vanish into the folds of his voluminous sleeves as 
he 
crosses them once more.

"This has nothing to do with my son!" He longs to grasp the 
invader, to shake him from his mind, to lock such thoughts from 
invasion.

Yet he cannot touch him.

"But it does, Genma.  It does.  You cannot accept that yet, after 
you have come so far?" Softly, the stranger extends a hand, placing it 
as if a feather upon Genma's broad shoulder.

Genma feels the sting of sorrow in his soul as he gazes through 
the thinly veiled curtains around the bed.  "You told me you knew how 
to 
cure my son."

"I do. but not of the Jusenkyou curse.  You do not understand the 
nature of such magic.  I am helping your son as I speak," There is no 
shock when Genma bats his hand away.

"Liar! You lied to me! I- I did what you told me, I try to protect 
him from his mother, I try to support him.  Why do I have to do this?" 
His teeth clench, his eyes screwed shut for a moment.   His fists open 
and close in frustration.

Click.  A thought cascades into the stream of his consciousness.  
A low growl crawls forth from his grinding teeth, "What are you doing 
to 
my son?!"

*How do I know he isn't the same demon sucking the life from Ranma 
right now!?*  A vision, his son being carried unconscious into the 
house 
by the Kuonji girl and Akane.

"Do not make haste with accusations, Saotome Genma," His voice 
does not lower, the level of it does not resound, but there is a 
strange 
piercing quality to his statement.  There has been no change in how he 
speaks, so softly and with careful purchase to each word.

Yet somehow there is command in his voice.

"You have done enough of that in your life, do you not think?" 
Again, his words speak of a familiarity which puzzles Genma.  It 
conveyed forth from the dredges of his memories all the times he had 
pushed blame from himself, finding convenient reasons to avoid 
responsibility.

"This is not about me, this is about Ranma," At a time, he might 
have considered his own life more important than anything else.  It is 
only recently that he realized the importance of his son, his future.

It is only recently that he realized how deadly and deceiving the 
road to hell is.

Speculation.  The figure considers him for a long, resolute 
moment.  "Yes, of course.  This is all about your child, but I would 
not 
abide myself if I were to help just him."

"You sound as if you want me to believe you are some sort of good 
Samaritan," Genma does not believe it.  Hours on end of tormented past, 
each visit culminating in his dismissal of the person behind that 
curtain.

Each visit beginning with the expressed need to confront that 
person, from this strange cloaked visitor.  This invader of the soul.

A tightness, marking the violet eyes of the robed one.  For a 
moment, those eyes looked dreadfully old. as if they had seen the dust 
of countless millennia, remnants of ancient worlds.

"I do what I must, as decreed to me.  I work for your salvation, 
and Ranma's.  If I were to cease my assistance, darkness would devour 
your child's soul. and it would all be over before it has even begun." 
Tired, says his voice.  Lonely, says his eyes.

For a brief moment, those eyes turn from Genma, staring upon the 
shrouded bed, but not seeing it.  "Sacrifice is something I am not 
amiss 
of, like you, I once had much and could want for none.  Like you, fate 
can change on a dime the path we must tread."

	Short.  Genma almost considers this strange invader as having 
emotions.  Desires.  A life.  Discarded, he gives forth a sharp noise 
of 
dismissal, "What makes you think I care about your sorrow, Demon?"

	Torment.  All that has been brought to him by the man with the 
violet eyes.  His life had been shattered with Hiroshi, and the shards 
driven deep by this beast who haunts his thoughts.

	"Oh, Genma," Fatigue shudders through the lone figure.  "My 
sorrow 
is so very intrinsically linked to what is happening to your son.  My 
own shame, and my own weakness."

	New strength seems to renew itself in the man's form as his 
shoulders rise.  "Which is why you must confront this, your father.  It 
is with this that you shall save your son, when this first trial is 
finished."

	Stillness.  Standing, his back to Genma, the stranger for a 
moment 
reminiscing it seems of some far off time.  He spins, once more 
bestowing his azure gaze upon the Saotome patriarch.

	There is obstinacy in Genma's stance, hesitance in his posture.  
Hidden past shrouded in darkness, that which he so fears and dreads to 
face.  Words from a dead man.

	Likened to some grim ghost of long ago, the stranger raises a 
hand, pointing at the thinly veiled bed and the occupant upon it.  "Go 
now, and be you aware of the truth, Gakusei."

	Frozen in time, the draped figure stands motionless, awaiting a 
movement of compliance from Genma.

	It is different.  The difference unnerving, never so blatantly 
and 
firmly has the figure insisted upon the confrontation.  Genma is 
suddenly aware that he either faces this moment of his past or he shall 
be confined here until he chooses to do so.

	Inside, the coward pipes, "You owe this creature nothing, and he 
is foolish if he believes you will be pushed into doing this!" As many 
times before of late.  Whenever confronted with the vision of this 
scene, always his soul ran away.

	He's been running away for so long, he isn't sure if he knows how 
to walk forwards.

	A slow, slithering shudder ripples through Genma Saotome as he 
takes first one step, then the next towards the veil.  The quiet 
sliding 
of his slippers on the lacquered wooden floor almost akin to the sound 
of metal on metal, for all the silence about.

	His heart softly thrums in his chest, the individual beats 
becoming more audible with each passing step.  The cloth before him, 
it's texture and design similar to cheesecloth, something obscuring but 
transparent.

	He turns, praying to the heavens that the strange figure might 
have forgotten him, that it might have vanished. but he finds him 
there, 
standing, arm outstretched in a firm gesture of charge.  As silent as a 
statue, as immovable as a mountain, and as intangible as the wind.

	Untouchable.

	"Must I-" he begins, knowing the answer already, fearing it.

	"Yes." The answer, short, low, almost inaudible.  For all that it 
is not, it is resounding to the soul of Genma Saotome.

	And so he turns, and with thundering heart, pulls away the veil.

	<<<<<<<	>>>>>>>

A boy, no more than seventeen and no less than fifteen.  Stocky, 
with a firm build and a body that speaks of many arduous hours of 
physical labor and training.

	There is a deadly calm pallor to his surroundings, bled dry of 
any 
emotional colors over the decades of forgetting.  However toneless the 
colors, there is painful familiarity to even the most minute of 
details.
	The smell of impending death hangs upon the air.  His father, 
Saotome Sensou, lying prone upon the bed.

	His body a mass of half-hanging clothing, he resembles not much 
more than a bundle of twigs. a misshapen bundle of twigs, knobby 
growths 
causing lumps to form on his bones in sporadic places.  It has been 
long 
since the look in his eyes began to take on a fire that was almost 
defiant of pain.

	It is not long now, until the old man's death.  Yasuka was out, 
as 
she always was.  She couldn't bear to see father as he was now.  She 
had 
always had difficulty around him, unable to deal with the painful 
visage 
he appeared to be.

	Shizuka was also gone, no doubt with Yasuka.  Father had ordered 
her to stop taking care of him, his words far less polite than Genma 
would have liked to remember, demeaning the innocent woman simply out 
of 
anger and pain.

	So it was left to him to take care of Mother's last wish, that 
someone be there for Sensou when he did pass.  It was not abnormal for 
a 
family member to be present, though it was for so many to be absent.  
It 
was also abnormal the importance Genma's mother had placed on this 
request.  Genma hadn't known his mother. she had left only letters to 
him, all of varying lengths.

	Genma knows that she must have died painfully as well.  Father 
refused to speak of it.  But then, he never spoke of his own pain 
either, only of his son's failings.

	The true irony of it was that Genma, the only one present with 
his 
father, was the last the old man wanted to see.

	The coughing brings him back to the moment.  The small, frail 
figure on the bed opens bloodshot eyes and takes him in.  "Get away 
from 
me, boy," the words are breathed out, accompanied by a fit of weak, 
anemic coughing.

	The words are familiar, and have been spoken so many times to 
Genma that he had thought he had forgotten the pain they caused in him.  
Yet it is as if they were freshly new, with his Father so close to 
death, all that he could say was for his son to get away?

	"Father, I cannot.  I will not leave you," The words are 
difficult, made more so with the angry flare that flitted across the 
clouded irises of his father's eyes.

	"You are the last piece of trash I want to see before I die, 
boy," 
The coughing, no less weak, goes on for longer than it normally would.

	Genma dabs carefully at the blood which is being coughed up, and 
offense is intensified as the weak, bony arms push away his touch.  
"Get 
away from me, you filth. what must I say to make you understand? You 
are 
not wanted."

	The hurt is too much, the boys body shaking, "I suppose I have 
never been wanted, that I was simply a horrible mistake." Always, his 
father had spoken of how disappointing Genma was.  It had been true as 
far as he could remember, his father held some kind of secret, horrible 
hatred for him.

	For a moment, Genma thinks that perhaps the old man was going to 
say something, as those eyes looked away from him, the small body 
beneath the sheets quaking as if from sorrow.  "Yes, that is right," 
The 
words stab him, tearing at his soul.  He wished that it was only his 
imagination that made them weak, almost inaudible.

	But it was not strange for his father to feel this way. after 
all, 
he could not say much for himself either.  If only that weakness of 
voice were a reluctant lie.

	"I am sorry that you had to have such a shameful son, Otousan," 
It 
was all he could say, how he felt can't be conveyed.  Not to this 
frail, 
almost ghostly figure, who not moments from now would be departing this 
living world.  It would not be fair for him to attack the man who gave 
him life, not in this state.

	The wheezing, painful sounding laugh wracks the small form of 
Saotome Sensou.  "You are so weak and pathetic, Genma, you do not even 
have any anger for me when I say that.  Shameful," There's almost an 
indefinable touch of sorrow in the words, as if somehow Sensou were 
responsible for the state of things.

	"I cannot hate you, Otousan.  It would be unfair, you being as 
sick as you are-"

	"Shutup, boy.  Just shut up," The answer has strength, 
conviction.  
It was louder than his father had spoken in a long time.  "I was not 
always this. this thing.  I was once a man, was once."

	It was several minutes before the coughing was quiet enough to 
speak again, his father having snatched the cloth from his hand as 
spatters of blood and bits of lung were being ejected from him.

	"I- It is my fault, Father.  I know there is a cure, there has to 
be. I should have looked harder, I should have found it, I am weak, and 
stupid," his own failing was reprehensible.  How could he call himself 
a 
warrior, a martial artist, when he could not even help his ailing 
father?

	"You are right about stupid, boy, there is no cure for what has 
happened to me.  You were an idiot to go and look for one," The soft, 
rhythmic wheezing sounded almost painfully dry and grating, even to 
Genma's ears.  His father was lying very still all of a sudden, the 
breathing becoming shallower, longer between breaths.

	"Father, please, don't go.  I will try again, please, let me do 
what I can," How could he live, a weak, pathetic shell of a man? How 
could he raise his own family?

	A gnarled, warped hand rises. reaching with searching fingers, 
eyes glassy as if on some horrible distant inferno.

	So very gently he took the hand, leaning in to listen to his 
father's words, "Otousan."

	"It was my fault, Genma.  Not yours.  This is my curse. for my 
selfishness, my greed.  Bargain kept." the sound is almost as if his 
whole body were deflating, a very soft, slow leaking out of his life 
force.  His words delirious, his mind already slipping from this realm.

	Tears formed in the eyes of the young man, "Otousan, do not say 
that.  I know that I failed you, do not die without the chance for me 
to 
redeem myself."

	"I- F-f-Failed. G-en-ma.  Do not. Be- me," The words patchy, 
sporadic.  He was not sure if he had heard it all, if his father had 
said anything.

	Then silence, not even the patterned breathing is audible.  All 
he 
was aware of is how numb and unreal the minutes up till then had been, 
and he could not believe anything had actually happened.

	Still, there was the body of his father. dead, and gone.  The 
painful words of his passing were locked inside his heart, dusted 
beneath the carpets of his brain.  His father had never said a word of 
kindness to him his entire life, why should he when he died?

	He had obviously imagined it.  Didn't he?

<<<<<<<	>>>>>>>

All is dark.  The cool feel of lacquered wood beneath his hands, 
kneeling upon the floor as his body shakes with unexpressed emotion.

"All is as it was, Saotome Genma.  What you heard was what was 
said, and what had been said.  There is far more for you to understand, 
but now. now is not the time," The figure stands as a solemn specter 
above him.

Some part of him hated the ghost, wishing nothing but anger and 
torment at it.  To put him through the dying moments of his father, to 
remind him of his own weaknesses and faults.  It could be nothing less 
than a demon.

"Get away from me," His voice is raw, angry.  Stripped of his self 
control, he rises suddenly, aiming a fist at the chest of the robed 
figure.

His hand collides painfully with the palm of the stranger.

"Do not strike that which you cannot understand, for you may be 
striking a blow to yourself in the process," It is as before, his voice 
does not rise nor lower.  The inflection doesn't ascend nor fall in 
anger or displeasure.

Yet there is silent command in those gentle, silvery tones.

Shock registers upon Genma's face, it was not possible for the 
robed man to have blocked him.  The speed of the punch was magnified by 
his skills in the Yamisenken and Umisenken, and focused by his anger 
and 
rage, "Who are you?"

"I am as I have always been, and shall always be.  I am what is, 
and what was, and what will be again.  I am nought but a shadow of a 
fractured spirit, bent upon a lone road of solitude and duty," His 
answer is recited, as a litany repeated a thousand times before.  Honor 
and faith are fed into the words, conviction and certainty come out of 
them.

His anger rising again, Genma pulls his fist from the grip of the 
tall stranger.  "What sort of answer is that? I demand answers! You 
have 
no right to do this to me and not give me something." Despite himself, 
Genma retreats a few steps. erring on the side of caution.

Carefully, he is considered for a moment with those soulful purple 
eyes.  "Yes, yes, you do deserve something.  I have put you through a 
great deal with our visits."

Genma notices, suddenly, the ashen glow dancing upon the palm of 
the strange figure.  An ivory and blue flame dancing gently upon the 
unburning flesh of the visitor.  It's motion makes him feel even more 
uneasy with the strangers presence.

"This I shall tell you. your father lived in pain for many years, 
and that pain was served by your birth.  Many years of lies, you have 
heard Genma Saotome.  Many years, but his last words are most important 
for you to recall.  Do not become him.  Remember that. and your soul 
will be clean when your day comes.  For this, it is not too late.  You 
have erred so badly until now, chance not the burdens your father wore.  
Discard such sins before they engulf you," His words begin to echo 
amidst the vast expanse of darkness.

As intangible as his words are, so does he become.  Fading off as he 
speaks, into the drift of darkness.

"Remember this, Genma Saotome, and Learn," Those last few words so 
hauntingly scarce as to remind Genma of those briefly gasped syllables 
before an old, hate filled man deflated into whatever afterlife awaited 
him.

And then he was alone.

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 Gray patches of light dance across the curtains, the faint sound 
of chimes drifting in the wind.  The air is cool, moist as the wind 
stirs the drapes in a gentle caress.

Ticking.  The faint rhythm echoing in the silence of the room.  
Its origin can be traced to the small alarm clock beside two futons.  
Nine-fourty-five and twenty four seconds.

The soft smell of jasmine incense wafts on the gentle breeze, 
giving life to the otherwise drab surroundings.  Sparse, the contents 
of 
the room would take but a few moments to stuff into a satchel before 
it's occupants vanished once more into the mists of the Japanese 
forests.

Solemn.  A man sits, transfixed upon some inner turmoil, his 
breathing slow and purposeful.  The jasmine relaxes him, giving him 
calm 
and peace required for such mental exercises as he now endures.  A bead 
of sweat rolls down his brow, having escaped the bandanna wrapped 
tightly around his balding skull.

Struggle.  His face growing slack as even the soft spray of 
droplets upon the roof fades to nothing, and the world drifts to 
darkness around him.  No heat, no cold, simply emptiness.

It is a mirror of his inner state, purging thought and motion from 
his body and mind, giving over to the shape of stillness.  It had been 
decades since he had stopped the practice, ever since an old man had 
taken him under his wing as apprentice and student.

Inversion.  His ki, glowing faintly to those who are able, winks 
out, exploring the inner turmoils of his spirit.  Searching for 
illnesses of both flesh and spirit.

A soft wheezing sound pierces his meditation, his jaw clenching 
suddenly.  Foreboding.

Absently, he picks at the seam of his gi.  His mind willing the 
noise to cease, to fade off into the blackness of nothing as all other 
distractions have.

It persists.

*Not again, please.* His will falters, his body trembling in fear 
of the vision that might befall his eyes were he to dare open them, a 
vision common as of late.  A poltergeist; a shadow of the past.

The sound heightens in its volume, persistent as the wind.  Still, 
he balks.  *This is a dead thing, something of the past, something that 
cannot hurt you anymore.*

Still, the harsh wheezing drifts to his ears, burning them with 
the image of his Father.  Bedridden and ill, his Father had spent the 
last few years of his life refusing help from doctors and family, 
stubborn and unwilling to admit weakness.

With fear, his eyes finally open.  Muscles tense, and ki flickers 
uncertainly.  It was as a hundred times before, of late.  The luminance 
of his Otousan's bedroom did not wash the gray away from the old, faded 
memory.

Curtains block his vision of the skeletal form his father must 
surely resemble, in his last year of life.  His body had wasted away, 
muscles twisted painfully. even his bones had begun malformed cancerous 
growths, only adding to the pain he must surely have felt.

The wheezing continued burning into Genma's ears.

"No, No, I am not going to watch this again!" clenching his fists, 
his mouth stuttering open and closed for a moment before he raised one 
hand, shaking it at the heavens.  "Do you hear me, damn you? I will not 
go through this again!"

The only answer he received was the continuance of the feared 
sound, rhythmic and repetitive.  He could almost liken it to the 
gasping 
of his darkened soul, the prices he paid for his son.

Flying to the door, he strived for the handle, only wailing as his 
hand passed through it.  "Let me out! Let me out, you damn mad demon!  
I- I don't want this!"

"Demon?  No." A silvery voice whispered softly from behind him.

Whirling, he pressed his back against the door.  Solid enough, 
despite the handle.  His eyes danced over the familiar haunt, the 
specter who has begun haunting him, as of only a few months ago.

"Hello again, Gakusei," The slight glow of his violet eyes was all 
that permeated the shadows of his silver hood, arms crossed across his 
chest, hidden beneath the voluminous sleeves of his robes.
The voice, decidedly male, but also beautiful in a manner beyond 
gender.  Like silver wind.

Cold.  Piercing through him with a certain kind of dread, Genma's 
nails scrape across the grain of the door as his heart thunders within 
his chest.  "I am not your student!" His words angry, heat in them as 
he 
lunges at the robed man.

As many times before, he meets only with the cold floor.

"Must we truly go through this every time?  We all learn, and are 
in a process of learning.  We are, each, students within the Divine's 
temple," The man's voice echoes from behind Genma, just as many times 
before.

There is a calm acquiescence to the stranger's voice, as if there 
is no disagreement only mutual misunderstanding which has been long 
resolved.  He uses a familiarity in his tone that hints at a long 
friendship with Genma, though Genma has never met the stranger except 
in 
troubled sleep and moments of solitude.

It makes him question his own sanity.  How can he even be sure he 
was "Seeing" this stranger? There was never a person in the room with 
him when the visitations happened.  Most had happened in the silence of 
his own skull, during meditation or fitful sleep.

But not all.

A moment.  Genma realizes that the stranger's hand is extended 
towards him, ivory colored, with a soft moonlike glow.  "It is not my 
wish to torment you, Saotome Genma."

Scorning the offer, he rises on his own, dusting his gi off, eyes 
half lidded and avoiding the strange gaze of the cloaked visitor.  "Oh 
yeah? Then why do you do this?" His hand flies up, gesturing towards 
the 
wheezing which still echoes from the bed.  "Why do you always bring 
this 
to me? Why do you bring ME to HERE?"

There is a tremble in his voice, a shaking in his body.  The calm, 
almost pristine look in the stranger's eyes only fills with sorrow.

"I do not summon these images, Gakusei.  It is you who has brought 
us here, here to the root of your son's suffering.  It is always you," 
His arms once more vanish into the folds of his voluminous sleeves as 
he 
crosses them once more.

"This has nothing to do with my son!" He longs to grasp the 
invader, to shake him from his mind, to lock such thoughts from 
invasion.

Yet he cannot touch him.

"But it does, Genma.  It does.  You cannot accept that yet, after 
you have come so far?" Softly, the stranger extends a hand, placing it 
as if a feather upon Genma's broad shoulder.

Genma feels the sting of sorrow in his soul as he gazes through 
the thinly veiled curtains around the bed.  "You told me you knew how 
to 
cure my son."

"I do. but not of the Jusenkyou curse.  You do not understand the 
nature of such magic.  I am helping your son as I speak," There is no 
shock when Genma bats his hand away.

"Liar! You lied to me! I- I did what you told me, I try to protect 
him from his mother, I try to support him.  Why do I have to do this?" 
His teeth clench, his eyes screwed shut for a moment.   His fists open 
and close in frustration.

Click.  A thought cascades into the stream of his consciousness.  
A low growl crawls forth from his grinding teeth, "What are you doing 
to 
my son?!"

*How do I know he isn't the same demon sucking the life from Ranma 
right now!?*  A vision, his son being carried unconscious into the 
house 
by the Kuonji girl and Akane.

"Do not make haste with accusations, Saotome Genma," His voice 
does not lower, the level of it does not resound, but there is a 
strange 
piercing quality to his statement.  There has been no change in how he 
speaks, so softly and with careful purchase to each word.

Yet somehow there is command in his voice.

"You have done enough of that in your life, do you not think?" 
Again, his words speak of a familiarity which puzzles Genma.  It 
conveyed forth from the dredges of his memories all the times he had 
pushed blame from himself, finding convenient reasons to avoid 
responsibility.

"This is not about me, this is about Ranma," At a time, he might 
have considered his own life more important than anything else.  It is 
only recently that he realized the importance of his son, his future.

It is only recently that he realized how deadly and deceiving the 
road to hell is.

Speculation.  The figure considers him for a long, resolute 
moment.  "Yes, of course.  This is all about your child, but I would 
not 
abide myself if I were to help just him."

"You sound as if you want me to believe you are some sort of good 
Samaritan," Genma does not believe it.  Hours on end of tormented past, 
each visit culminating in his dismissal of the person behind that 
curtain.

Each visit beginning with the expressed need to confront that 
person, from this strange cloaked visitor.  This invader of the soul.

A tightness, marking the violet eyes of the robed one.  For a 
moment, those eyes looked dreadfully old. as if they had seen the dust 
of countless millennia, remnants of ancient worlds.

"I do what I must, as decreed to me.  I work for your salvation, 
and Ranma's.  If I were to cease my assistance, darkness would devour 
your child's soul. and it would all be over before it has even begun." 
Tired, says his voice.  Lonely, says his eyes.

For a brief moment, those eyes turn from Genma, staring upon the 
shrouded bed, but not seeing it.  "Sacrifice is something I am not 
amiss 
of, like you, I once had much and could want for none.  Like you, fate 
can change on a dime the path we must tread."

	Short.  Genma almost considers this strange invader as having 
emotions.  Desires.  A life.  Discarded, he gives forth a sharp noise 
of 
dismissal, "What makes you think I care about your sorrow, Demon?"

	Torment.  All that has been brought to him by the man with the 
violet eyes.  His life had been shattered with Hiroshi, and the shards 
driven deep by this beast who haunts his thoughts.

	"Oh, Genma," Fatigue shudders through the lone figure.  "My 
sorrow 
is so very intrinsically linked to what is happening to your son.  My 
own shame, and my own weakness."

	New strength seems to renew itself in the man's form as his 
shoulders rise.  "Which is why you must confront this, your father.  It 
is with this that you shall save your son, when this first trial is 
finished."

	Stillness.  Standing, his back to Genma, the stranger for a 
moment 
reminiscing it seems of some far off time.  He spins, once more 
bestowing his azure gaze upon the Saotome patriarch.

	There is obstinacy in Genma's stance, hesitance in his posture.  
Hidden past shrouded in darkness, that which he so fears and dreads to 
face.  Words from a dead man.

	Likened to some grim ghost of long ago, the stranger raises a 
hand, pointing at the thinly veiled bed and the occupant upon it.  "Go 
now, and be you aware of the truth, Gakusei."

	Frozen in time, the draped figure stands motionless, awaiting a 
movement of compliance from Genma.

	It is different.  The difference unnerving, never so blatantly 
and 
firmly has the figure insisted upon the confrontation.  Genma is 
suddenly aware that he either faces this moment of his past or he shall 
be confined here until he chooses to do so.

	Inside, the coward pipes, "You owe this creature nothing, and he 
is foolish if he believes you will be pushed into doing this!" As many 
times before of late.  Whenever confronted with the vision of this 
scene, always his soul ran away.

	He's been running away for so long, he isn't sure if he knows how 
to walk forwards.

	A slow, slithering shudder ripples through Genma Saotome as he 
takes first one step, then the next towards the veil.  The quiet 
sliding 
of his slippers on the lacquered wooden floor almost akin to the sound 
of metal on metal, for all the silence about.

	His heart softly thrums in his chest, the individual beats 
becoming more audible with each passing step.  The cloth before him, 
it's texture and design similar to cheesecloth, something obscuring but 
transparent.

	He turns, praying to the heavens that the strange figure might 
have forgotten him, that it might have vanished. but he finds him 
there, 
standing, arm outstretched in a firm gesture of charge.  As silent as a 
statue, as immovable as a mountain, and as intangible as the wind.

	Untouchable.

	"Must I-" he begins, knowing the answer already, fearing it.

	"Yes." The answer, short, low, almost inaudible.  For all that it 
is not, it is resounding to the soul of Genma Saotome.

	And so he turns, and with thundering heart, pulls away the veil.

	<<<<<<<	>>>>>>>

A boy, no more than seventeen and no less than fifteen.  Stocky, 
with a firm build and a body that speaks of many arduous hours of 
physical labor and training.

	There is a deadly calm pallor to his surroundings, bled dry of 
any 
emotional colors over the decades of forgetting.  However toneless the 
colors, there is painful familiarity to even the most minute of 
details.
	The smell of impending death hangs upon the air.  His father, 
Saotome Sensou, lying prone upon the bed.

	His body a mass of half-hanging clothing, he resembles not much 
more than a bundle of twigs. a misshapen bundle of twigs, knobby 
growths 
causing lumps to form on his bones in sporadic places.  It has been 
long 
since the look in his eyes began to take on a fire that was almost 
defiant of pain.

	It is not long now, until the old man's death.  Yasuka was out, 
as 
she always was.  She couldn't bear to see father as he was now.  She 
had 
always had difficulty around him, unable to deal with the painful 
visage 
he appeared to be.

	Shizuka was also gone, no doubt with Yasuka.  Father had ordered 
her to stop taking care of him, his words far less polite than Genma 
would have liked to remember, demeaning the innocent woman simply out 
of 
anger and pain.

	So it was left to him to take care of Mother's last wish, that 
someone be there for Sensou when he did pass.  It was not abnormal for 
a 
family member to be present, though it was for so many to be absent.  
It 
was also abnormal the importance Genma's mother had placed on this 
request.  Genma hadn't known his mother. she had left only letters to 
him, all of varying lengths.

	Genma knows that she must have died painfully as well.  Father 
refused to speak of it.  But then, he never spoke of his own pain 
either, only of his son's failings.

	The true irony of it was that Genma, the only one present with 
his 
father, was the last the old man wanted to see.

	The coughing brings him back to the moment.  The small, frail 
figure on the bed opens bloodshot eyes and takes him in.  "Get away 
from 
me, boy," the words are breathed out, accompanied by a fit of weak, 
anemic coughing.

	The words are familiar, and have been spoken so many times to 
Genma that he had thought he had forgotten the pain they caused in him.  
Yet it is as if they were freshly new, with his Father so close to 
death, all that he could say was for his son to get away?

	"Father, I cannot.  I will not leave you," The words are 
difficult, made more so with the angry flare that flitted across the 
clouded irises of his father's eyes.

	"You are the last piece of trash I want to see before I die, 
boy," 
The coughing, no less weak, goes on for longer than it normally would.

	Genma dabs carefully at the blood which is being coughed up, and 
offense is intensified as the weak, bony arms push away his touch.  
"Get 
away from me, you filth. what must I say to make you understand? You 
are 
not wanted."

	The hurt is too much, the boys body shaking, "I suppose I have 
never been wanted, that I was simply a horrible mistake." Always, his 
father had spoken of how disappointing Genma was.  It had been true as 
far as he could remember, his father held some kind of secret, horrible 
hatred for him.

	For a moment, Genma thinks that perhaps the old man was going to 
say something, as those eyes looked away from him, the small body 
beneath the sheets quaking as if from sorrow.  "Yes, that is right," 
The 
words stab him, tearing at his soul.  He wished that it was only his 
imagination that made them weak, almost inaudible.

	But it was not strange for his father to feel this way. after 
all, 
he could not say much for himself either.  If only that weakness of 
voice were a reluctant lie.

	"I am sorry that you had to have such a shameful son, Otousan," 
It 
was all he could say, how he felt can't be conveyed.  Not to this 
frail, 
almost ghostly figure, who not moments from now would be departing this 
living world.  It would not be fair for him to attack the man who gave 
him life, not in this state.

	The wheezing, painful sounding laugh wracks the small form of 
Saotome Sensou.  "You are so weak and pathetic, Genma, you do not even 
have any anger for me when I say that.  Shameful," There's almost an 
indefinable touch of sorrow in the words, as if somehow Sensou were 
responsible for the state of things.

	"I cannot hate you, Otousan.  It would be unfair, you being as 
sick as you are-"

	"Shutup, boy.  Just shut up," The answer has strength, 
conviction.  
It was louder than his father had spoken in a long time.  "I was not 
always this. this thing.  I was once a man, was once."

	It was several minutes before the coughing was quiet enough to 
speak again, his father having snatched the cloth from his hand as 
spatters of blood and bits of lung were being ejected from him.

	"I- It is my fault, Father.  I know there is a cure, there has to 
be. I should have looked harder, I should have found it, I am weak, and 
stupid," his own failing was reprehensible.  How could he call himself 
a 
warrior, a martial artist, when he could not even help his ailing 
father?

	"You are right about stupid, boy, there is no cure for what has 
happened to me.  You were an idiot to go and look for one," The soft, 
rhythmic wheezing sounded almost painfully dry and grating, even to 
Genma's ears.  His father was lying very still all of a sudden, the 
breathing becoming shallower, longer between breaths.

	"Father, please, don't go.  I will try again, please, let me do 
what I can," How could he live, a weak, pathetic shell of a man? How 
could he raise his own family?

	A gnarled, warped hand rises. reaching with searching fingers, 
eyes glassy as if on some horrible distant inferno.

	So very gently he took the hand, leaning in to listen to his 
father's words, "Otousan."

	"It was my fault, Genma.  Not yours.  This is my curse. for my 
selfishness, my greed.  Bargain kept." the sound is almost as if his 
whole body were deflating, a very soft, slow leaking out of his life 
force.  His words delirious, his mind already slipping from this realm.

	Tears formed in the eyes of the young man, "Otousan, do not say 
that.  I know that I failed you, do not die without the chance for me 
to 
redeem myself."

	"I- F-f-Failed. G-en-ma.  Do not. Be- me," The words patchy, 
sporadic.  He was not sure if he had heard it all, if his father had 
said anything.

	Then silence, not even the patterned breathing is audible.  All 
he 
was aware of is how numb and unreal the minutes up till then had been, 
and he could not believe anything had actually happened.

	Still, there was the body of his father. dead, and gone.  The 
painful words of his passing were locked inside his heart, dusted 
beneath the carpets of his brain.  His father had never said a word of 
kindness to him his entire life, why should he when he died?

	He had obviously imagined it.  Didn't he?

<<<<<<<	>>>>>>>

All is dark.  The cool feel of lacquered wood beneath his hands, 
kneeling upon the floor as his body shakes with unexpressed emotion.

"All is as it was, Saotome Genma.  What you heard was what was 
said, and what had been said.  There is far more for you to understand, 
but now. now is not the time," The figure stands as a solemn specter 
above him.

Some part of him hated the ghost, wishing nothing but anger and 
torment at it.  To put him through the dying moments of his father, to 
remind him of his own weaknesses and faults.  It could be nothing less 
than a demon.

"Get away from me," His voice is raw, angry.  Stripped of his self 
control, he rises suddenly, aiming a fist at the chest of the robed 
figure.

His hand collides painfully with the palm of the stranger.

"Do not strike that which you cannot understand, for you may be 
striking a blow to yourself in the process," It is as before, his voice 
does not rise nor lower.  The inflection doesn't ascend nor fall in 
anger or displeasure.

Yet there is silent command in those gentle, silvery tones.

Shock registers upon Genma's face, it was not possible for the 
robed man to have blocked him.  The speed of the punch was magnified by 
his skills in the Yamisenken and Umisenken, and focused by his anger 
and 
rage, "Who are you?"

"I am as I have always been, and shall always be.  I am what is, 
and what was, and what will be again.  I am nought but a shadow of a 
fractured spirit, bent upon a lone road of solitude and duty," His 
answer is recited, as a litany repeated a thousand times before.  Honor 
and faith are fed into the words, conviction and certainty come out of 
them.

His anger rising again, Genma pulls his fist from the grip of the 
tall stranger.  "What sort of answer is that? I demand answers! You 
have 
no right to do this to me and not give me something." Despite himself, 
Genma retreats a few steps. erring on the side of caution.

Carefully, he is considered for a moment with those soulful purple 
eyes.  "Yes, yes, you do deserve something.  I have put you through a 
great deal with our visits."

Genma notices, suddenly, the ashen glow dancing upon the palm of 
the strange figure.  An ivory and blue flame dancing gently upon the 
unburning flesh of the visitor.  It's motion makes him feel even more 
uneasy with the strangers presence.

"This I shall tell you. your father lived in pain for many years, 
and that pain was served by your birth.  Many years of lies, you have 
heard Genma Saotome.  Many years, but his last words are most important 
for you to recall.  Do not become him.  Remember that. and your soul 
will be clean when your day comes.  For this, it is not too late.  You 
have erred so badly until now, chance not the burdens your father wore.  
Discard such sins before they engulf you," His words begin to echo 
amidst the vast expanse of darkness.

As intangible as his words are, so does he become.  Fading off as 
he speaks, into the drift of darkness.

"Remember this, Genma Saotome, and Learn," Those last few words so 
hauntingly scarce as to remind Genma of those briefly gasped syllables 
before an old, hate filled man deflated into whatever afterlife awaited 
him.

And then he was alone.

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