Only have time for this one at the moment. Thanks for the C+C, Kichi. Will
get back to you on it an a couple of days (I hope)

FUYUTSUKI

I have never doubted which of them is more cruel.

Curiously, I had a damn good idea who you were refering to, largely in part
because I agree with Fuyutsuki.

Gendo may orate grandly about Instrumentality and Dead Sea Scrolls
and the Third Impact in rolling words that fill you with hope, joy,
and pride, but only Yui can calmly change Shinji's diaper while
stating that she will - no, already has, in a sense - sacrifice her

I'd reword this slightly, only because the 'will-- has-- sacrifice'
configuration to the sentence confused me a bit since the center sounds like
it's in past tense but the rest of the sentence is in present.

only son in order to... what? Leave a sign that Humanity WAS here,
a brief light shining desperately? A declaration that would last
until the suns grew dim and all worlds fall to darkness?

Vanity, is what I would call it. :)

Yui was the one that shaped Gendo's unforged steel into a razor's
edge which would split the world.

Inadvertently, I would suspect.

Oh, she may try to cover it up in language, but the look in her
eye convinces me that she would gladly throw herself, her son,
her husband, and even the world upon the bonfire, if it would
lead to what she _wanted_, what she _needed_. The light of a
fanatic burns in her eyes,

Like this depiction as well. Of course its through the eyes of another
person who is flawed as well, but it still rings true.

Some years later, when a certain young doctor asked me why Rei
was so cold, so... distant, when she remembered Yui being so
warm, so caring, I could only stare mutely, the words that I
wanted to say not coming from my throat. I honestly tried not
to laugh, knowing that it would offend her, but I failed, and
the poor young woman stormed off. I'm afraid she never looked
at me the same again.

The truth is, Rei _was_ Yui, in so many ways that even I only
begin to comprehend. The difference was that... well... Rei
just didn't care for the mask that Yui had to put on just to
avoid being ostracized.

Heh. Not quite sure if I agree with that, merely because Rei seemed more and
at the same time less than what a person would be.

I'm not saying that Yui was insane but rather that... hmm,
all right, that's what I am saying. But... being a prophet,
having seen the future in a collection of rotting scrolls,
knowing that you were fated to die just to give your only son
a chance to bring humanity true happiness, without knowing if
that chance will ever play out because that's where the scrolls
end... I could excuse a bit of madness. Hell, I'm not certain
I could have remained sane myself.

Oh, it's easy. You just have to fight what is apparently destiny. You might
not succeed, but you can fight it.

Regardless, I see the light of a true fanatic burning in her
eyes, and I wonder if it will all be worth it in the end.

It will be, of course, but we all know the price to be paid for
returning to Paradise.

God: A sum of one thousand dollars and a shrubbery. I'm not real demanding,
actually.

AYANAMI

I was the beginning.

My soul was woven deep into the pattern of this kabuki dance,

Shades of Gasaraki. ^_^

masks upon masks upon masks, hiding the truth from not only
our foes but ourselves.

I am the end.

Now is the time for the dance to end, our wild revels done,
and all masks to be removed. The hour is midnight, and we
have come full circle.

What God could not do, Man has done. The wyrm bites his own
tale,

tail (assuming you are referring to Norse mythology)

that dead men tell no tales.

In that case, why am I talking?

Did Shinji suffer me to live after all?

Or am I just to stubborn

too

IKARI

I've always found it amusing that everyone thinks good always
triumphs over evil. I mean, come on people, figure it out,
statistically good can only win about 50% of the time...

Ah, but statistics are not exacts. They represent averages. In fact, what
should happen rarely does, save in the long run, and even then it is not
always so.

And anyway (according to history) the 'good guys' were
the ones who triumphed, talked to a good PR man who wrote
up a nice story about how the other guys were evil dudes
who sacrificed perfectly useful virgins and ate babies with
tartar sauce (although I'd prefer something a bit more sour,
to counteract the sweetness of the young meat, if you catch
my drift) when all they were trying to do was crush some
heads.

Seems a bit glib for Genny-chan, IMO.

I chuckle at the maudlin turn my thoughts have taken. Putting
my head back into my hands, I stare up at the ceiling and said
aloud pointedly, "Does it matter?"

And I have to answer myself, "No, not particularly."

Well, only to him. ^_^

AUTHOR'S NOTES

Well, this was a much-needed revision... from my point of view.
I'm not sure about the new Rei bit, but it needed work anyway, so why
not do it that way?

Actually they Rei bit was good. Surreal enough for the series and a nice bit
to place between Fuyutsuki and Gendou's thoughts. Good intrspective piece
over all.

D.B. Sommer





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