Subject: [FFML] [fic][NGE] In the Know 1:5
From: Draqensis@aol.com
Date: 8/16/2003, 5:10 PM
To: ffml@anifics.com

1:5

The pain was more intense than anything else he'd felt over the span of 
his, admittedly, short life. It's one thing to know that broken bones 
and such will hurt, and quite another to experience the pain yourself. 

Frankly, it sucked. 

The young man's eyes were wide, muscles taut and straining against 
something that just plain _wasn't_ there. He couldn't hear anything 
because of the blood rushing through his head with a sound you'd get 
sitting under a relatively low bridge in the center of any metropolis, 
during rush hour. Almost all preception seemed to focus on the intense 
pain coming from his right forearm and hand, with what little there was 
left keeping itself occupied by taking in useless details. Like the 
smell of the LCL in his nostrils, the feeling of gentle pressure on his 
skin...

And the pain muted from 'hot-spikes-being-used-to-pry-your-arm-apart' 
to something slightly less intensive.

Eyes came back into focus, and the chest heaved in taking a breath that 
had been long overdue ever since the scream.

Pupils contracted as a smallish glow coming from the viewscreen 
intensified, drawing attention like a penlight during an eye-
examination would. 

The clawed arm clamed over the viewscreen, and somehow, over what felt 
like his own head. The pain. The glow coming from something that looked 
like a barrel in the middle of the monstrous 'palm' across his field of 
view. Somehow he could _feel_ the heat on his face. 

Exactly what he had wanted to avoid, because he damn well knew that if 
this happened then that was _it_. Over. Schluss. Finito. No more 
continues my friend. _His_ mother was safe, at home or at work, not 
bothered by things beyond taking care of his sister or getting annoyed 
by her husband... this was the truth he knew, the truth the knowing of 
which was about on par with removing the safety net during a trapeze 
act, when the acrobats were in full swing and one had just slipped 
before he could make the switch.

The truth that would condemn this world... 

"No!"

Which was not an option. Ever since he'd taken it upon himself to do 
this, he'd known that defeat was not an option. He had to win. Had to. 
It wasn't a choice, it wasn't an option, it wasn't something that was 
open for debate. 

Loss was death, not only to him but to everyone else. 

His left fist clenched, and he could feel that the EVA mirrored the 
motion. Crude, but it would have to do. It was an odd clarity, some 
detached corner of his mind noted, that came with the pain. It wasn't 
the _how_, he now knew, not the concept at all... the concept was 
needed alright, but the _intent_ was the key, just like with moving his 
own body. 

Right now, however, he could hardly think at all, so he had to be crude 
about it.

'Just follow my lead,' he seemed to say.

"I will _not_ lose!"

And he rocked to the side in the pilot's seat, shutting his eyes as if 
to block out the pain, as his fist struck the side of his head.

* * *

>From the outside, it looked like this:

The Evangelion's massive fist crashed into said mecha's head, the 
exaggerated armouring on the knuckles leading. Armour met armour, and 
in the end the weakened helmet lost that particular contest, cracking 
and shattering as the seals holding the upper part down broke and gave.

The Unit's head, free of the pressure of the Shito's hand for a moment, 
slipped downwards as the whole EVA let itself fall to the ground, 
coming down in a more or less controlled heap on its right side, back against 
the remains of the building it had been slammed into. 

The Shito's left palm erupted in a flash of blinding light as a lance 
of energy vaporised the armour that had encased the Evangelion's head 
just a moment ago.

Several jaws hit bedrock. Figuratively speaking.

* * *

The viewpoint swiveled to the right, surroundings a blur with the speed 
of the motion. Eyes flickered, and a decision was made with the intent 
clear, the course of action that would lead to that intent's completion 
less so but still defined enough for the interface.

This happened in less time than it takes a person to blink, and Shinji 
could feel the disconcerting sensation of holding something in his left 
hand, yet knowing that _his_ left hand was empty. Dual sensory imput 
was a bitch to figure, but the pain that radiated out from the left 
side of his head was a motivator as good as no other when it came to 
learning how to deal with it.

'Note. That was _not_ something I want to repeat anytime soon. Ow.'

 The EVA lashed out with a double kick that caught the Shito in the 
abdomen, slightly below the core, and sent it staggering backwards, 
giving Shinji a moment to actually get Unit 01 back on its feet. The 
prog knife in the EVA's left hand was held with the blade down, as it 
had been in the right.

"Now would be the time to say - fortunately, I am not right handed," 
the pilot grunted through his teeth, still slightly wobbly in 
perception. "No such luck."

Heavy, thudding footfalls echoed in the dark canyons of Tokyo-3 as the 
purple and green Evangelion threw itself forward, left arm low and 
across the chest, crippled right arm shielding the unarmoured, gray-fleshed 
head. A good thing too, because the Shito wasn't quite as defenseless as it 
appeared. The swing of a spindly arm was deflected, Shinji's eyes stinging from 
the tears the pain of using the EVA's right forearm to block it caused him, 
even with the dampened feedback.

It was a good decision through, and the hulking purple and green giant 
braced against the blow and brought the progressive knife around in a 
vicious, backhanded arc towards the enemy; one that would lead the 
glowing, humming blade through the Shito's core.

The hexagonal pattern that sprung up in the air, directly in front of 
the Shito, hadn't really been counted upon.

The sound of a blade snapping in half was almost as ugly, in this 
situation, as that of a breaking arm.

* * *

"An AT Field?!" Misato exclaimed.

"So, the Shito have them too." Ritsuko's voice was amazingly calm, 
given the situation. "As long as the field is active, he won't be able 
to reach it."

On the main screen, Unit 01 crashed into the AT Field, right elbow 
leading. Shinji's scream bore as much frustration at the 
ineffectiveness of the action with it as it did pain from the feedback. The 
left arm, still holding what was left of the progressive knife, slammed into 
the field moments later... and again... and again.

"Shinji! What are you doing?!" asked Misato. "You can't hurt it like 
that!"

"I'm trying to saturate the goddamn thing so I can get through!" 
replied Unit 01's pilot, voice strained. The pounding continued like a 
metronome, armoured fist coming against AT Field time and time again. 
"But I'll settle for keeping it on the defensive right now."

"He's right on that account," Ritsuko noted. "It seems to be too busy 
keeping up the Field to attack. Shinji! You have to nullify the field 
before you can harm it! The EVA can deploy an AT Field as well, and 
that should do the trick!" 

"How in hell am I supposed to do _that_?!"

"Concentrate! You need to try and concentrate on expanding yourself!"

"I'm having enough problems with moving this thing to have anything 
left to spare! _You_ try to get your thoughts to be even vaguely 
coherent after you get your arm broken and see how well you can focus! 
Any _other_ brilliant ideas before the big lug realizes he can do... _
that_! OH SHIT!"

* * *

Shinji just barely managed to get the EVA to duck before another of the 
Shito's energy lances speared past him, catching one of the shoulder 
pauldrons and blowing it to kingdom come.

'Okay, there's a flaw there somewhere, besides the fact that the 
thing's slow in making combat decisions. It's just a matter of finding 
it... before I get my ass fried.'

He caught himself, or rather, the Evangelion did, in a crouch with the 
left hand flat on the ground in front of the body. Then he had the EVA 
push off and to the side as another blast made a neat furrow in the 
concrete and the ground below in the place he'd been crouched. 

"Need time. Let's see if this thing is as much a high-mobility weapon 
as advertised." Shinji mumbled, vaulting over the wall of buildings on 
his left as the Shito continued to track him and let off the occasional 
shot. He hunkered down, trying to stay as much under cover as possible.

"Misato, I think I have an idea! I need a weapon! The fine art of 
fistcuffs isn't going to help me with this one."

"Left of you, a little over half a kilometer. The big building with the 
flashing red light on top." the answer came with little hesitation.

"Gotcha. Hope to the heavens this works." 

He could see it, a bit off in the distance, the light flashing. The 
Evangelion moved, Shinji finding it easier to put himself in the state 
of mind that let him command the giant. The Shito fired again, the beam 
missing his EVA by a few meters and blowing another building apart 
instead. 

Then he was there, not daring to slow down but going into a skid 
instead, letting the friction bleed of his speed as he passed the 
building. That had been the idea, at least, but unfortunately he'd 
misjudged and Unit 01 slammed into the depot's side. 

"Well, that's one way of stopping I don't reccommend," Shinji grunted 
shakily as he regained his balance, and the Evangelion raised itself 
from it's half-sprawl half-crouch. 

 His eyes scanned the contents of the now open sided building, he 
reached out, felt Unit 01's hand close on the weapon he'd chosen, and 
rolled aside again as the depot was hit. Apparently it was more sturdy 
than the average building, since it was still standing afterwards. 

Shinji fell back, bringing the depot between himself and the Shito, 
leaned out a little to let his left arm come up - what looked like an 
EVA scale Glock clutched in it - and took aim. Then he ducked again 
before he got hit and called out:

"Okay, you have a ridiculously expensive war machine with electronics 
that look like they cost more than a small country's upkeep for a year 
and you _forget_ to put in something that gets a crosshair fire-assist 
up on the HUD?! Who's bright idea was _that_?! Skip it! How many shots 
in this thing?"

"Twenty rounds." answered Misato's voice.

He took a few deep breaths, grimacing at the LCL, the dull ache of his 
right arm and head, the creeping sensation of fatigue, and acted.

* * *

"What are you doing?!" Misato shouted as the Evangelion stepped from 
around the depot, hesitated for an instant... and ran. Its remaining 
pauldron was nearly sheared off as Shinji managed to avoid another 
incoming energy lance and strafed a building with said pauldron in the 
process, causing it to hang awkwardly, bent back and half-crushed by 
the impact.

The EVA brought up its left arm and snapped off a shot, the bullet from 
the monster sized handgun going wide and hitting the building next to 
the Shito. The next one clipped it on the arm, making the creature rear 
back. The third one, fired a moment later, would have struck the leg if 
the hexagonal pattern of the Shito's AT Field hadn't sprung up and 
deflected the shot. 

The EVA stopped firing, and ran full tilt for its attacker.

"It can either attack or defend, not both at once!" said Shinji. "Or it 
takes a second or two to switch over every time at least! Since some 
genius didn't think about fire-assist, I need to get close enough not 
to need to aim!" 

Another lance lashed out then, and Unit 01 barely managed to duck aside 
in time, nearly overbalancing again, but now it was close enough. 

* * *

Shinji brought up the gun, sighted the target, and fired. And kept 
firing.

The first shot sailed past, going high, but the second struck the bony 
'mask' that had been the Shito's head before it was pushed aside by the 
current one after having been damaged by the N2 strike. The next struck 
lower, actually scuffing the core and making the creature flinch... its 
'eyes' glowed and Shinji knew that he was going too fast to just 
sidestep like he had before, so he did the only other thing he could 
think of. He jumped. 

Another furrow was left in the street where the Shito's energy lance 
had struck, but the Evangelion wasn't there anymore. 

It was an odd feeling for Shinji. He'd always prided himself on his 
self control, but this sensation - the tail end of an immense 
adrenaline high, the stress, the odd dual sensory input that relayed a 
brief weightlessness... a sense of detachment came over him as he 
played out what he knew would be his last card. That he no longer felt 
the pain in his right arm, instead of which there was now a sense of 
pinpricks all over his skin, and everything seemed to be slightly 
delayed, were both signs he knew were anything but good. 

It was all he could do to focus on the target, slightly below him and 
rapidly approaching - the jump had been a low one. He used the right 
arm as a brace, setting the barrel in the crook of the elbow, and 
emptied the clip.

The stacatto sounded like thunder, shots ringing out so fast that it 
was nearly one constant sound rather than a fast succession of 
rapports. This time his aim was better, despite the motion and 
awkwardness of the position. The Shito was rocked back by the impacts, 
chips of the white bone-like substance that covered its shoulders, head 
and made up the bracing of the core flying as the bullets struck home. 
Red shards were clipped from the core's side by one shot, then another, 
and another... and then the Evangelion's armoured knees slammed into 
the black mass that made up most of the Shito's body. 

Two giants, one black and white, the other purple and green, were 
rocked by the impact. The former fell, crashing down onto its back, 
with the latter's knees planted in its abdomen. 

Shinji shouted out, an incoherent scream, as he made the Evangelion 
bring it's left arm down, pressed the muzzle of the gun to the Shito's 
core, and pulled the trigger...

Only to have the gun explode in his hand as the hexagonal pattern of 
the AT Field asserted itself right in front of the muzzle.

Eyes wide with momentary incomprehension, then with dread, the pilot of 
Unit 01 felt something begin to build, press against his chest and 
head, the force increasing at an alarming rate... 

* * *

"The Shito's unfolding its AT Field again!" Maya's voice said in a 
frantic tone.

On the screen, the EVA stiffened like a person touching a live-wire 
before being flung back by a muscle spasm... 

"...no." said Misato. "Shinji! Watch out!"

* * *

Tick.

Hopelessness. 

He'd gambled and lost...

Fear.

He'd failed them, failed them all... failed himself.

Self-loathing.

He could have done it differently. He could have been prepared more 
than he'd been.

Anger.

A primal feeling directed at the thing before him.

An odd sense permeating his limbs.

A spike of pain that lanced through him, and the sound of something 
breaking could be heard. 

His right arm was on fire.

Determination. 

'Never surrender.'

His right arm was ice.

Tock.

* * *

"Right wrist is restored!" Hyuga's gasp rang out, cutting through the 
dread of the command bridge as the tech himself stared at both the 
image on screen and the status displays in sheer disbelief.

"Sync ratio spike! EVA 01 is unfolding its... no! The Evangelion's AT 
Field is focusing!" Maya informed, eyes wide.

"What in the name of God...?!" Misato whispered as the view-screen 
showed Unit 01 punching downwards at the Shito.

The Evangelion's right fist struck the hexagonal pattern of an AT Field 
right above the core... then the armoured gauntlet shattered at the 
first and second knuckle, the pattern parted before it. Fragments of 
the crimson core erupted upwards, and from the camera feed within the 
plug, on Shinji's screen, the occupants of the bridge saw that it 
looked as if someone had slammed a sharp spike right through the middle. 

"Energy fluctuation from the Shito! It's going to...!"

The screen went white.

"...self-destruct." Maya finished, lamely.

There was silence, and the compensators came back online. The white 
dimmed down, flickered...

"...hey... Sato-chan..." said a gasping, weary voice over the speakers. 
"...I think... I figured out... the AT Field thing."

On screen, at the edge of a rubble-strewn, charred crater, a blackened
 and burned looking EVA 01 was sprawled, arms akimbo, half-embedded in 
what remained of a building that had been half-consumed by the 
explosion. The Evangelion's umbilical cord just... _stopped_ after 
going a few meters away from the giant's back, the remains lying 
against the crater's edge opposite the Evangelion.

A glint of something metallic descended, spinning wildly, and embedding 
itself in the ground in front of the EVA... the remaining, half-
attached pauldron had been blown off and upwards by the explosion it 
seemed. It wasn't much more than a charred and twisted piece of metal 
now, half buried in the scorched ground.

Unit 01's mouth, the bottom still in what was left of the helmet's jaw 
guard, the top grayed flesh and actual teeth, was open as the head was 
laid back. Two wide, unearthly emerald eyes looked out from the gray 
flesh, primary and secondary pupils wide.

Looking at the stars.



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